Hello again
I want to first report that the grandsons, grandmother is doing fine.
Now today I went to physiotherapy, and found out that the physiotherapist is not going to be around for a while. And he mentioned that I should go to their other clinic. Which means I have to start all over again.
As it is they have not been doing much for my injuries. I am still in allot of pain, I have done no exercises. I just have been lying on heat pads and have had this machine attached to me, providing current to my muscles. That has been the extent of my physio.
Spoke with the insurance company today and they are starting their nonsense. You have options, you could settle and do what needs to be done on your own. Then there is hiring a lawyer. I know what both are like.
The insurance company wants to settle and pay out as little as possible. On the other hand the lawyer, although they say they will work on a contingency basis, they neglect to tell you that you will be charged for every letter, phone call, photo copy etc... etc... that they do. So you go from the lawyer saying they will only charge you 33% if they win, but what it actually turns out to be is closer to 45% of the final settlement.
I do have a year from the date of the accident to hire a lawyer. Which I will be calling the insurance company back on Monday and letting them know that this is my right and that I know their game.
Anyways.
Mom was a little tired today when I arrived, but as soon as she saw me, she woke right up with a huge smile on her face.
I just love this.
I took her down to her room to get what was needed for dinner and gave mom her drinks... She is always very thirsty when I arrive. It is as if they do not even give her something to drink during the day.
If I relied on them to keep my mother alive, she would of passed away long ago. Not just this home, but every other home mom has been in. I have been a pain in their ass, at each and every home. I am their making sure mom is well looked after. That they are doing what I require.
It is I who knows what is best for my mother. Not them. I have been doing this for over a decade. And through out this whole time I have conducted research on her illness's. On care giving. Been their looking after mom at each step of the way, as she progresses through her illness.
No one takes better care of their mother than I do. I don't get angry, frustrated, upset. I am extremely patient, gentle, tender and caring.
I do everything to keep mom relaxed and well feed, full of the proper nutrition. Including supplements.
OK mom really enjoyed her dinner and we got her ready for bed early. I read to her for a while, as we waited for the temp staff to come and put her to bed.
When that was done, it was the spa treatment time. Wow does mom every enjoy this. Who wouldn't, being pampered like this. And I am glad to do this for my mother.
I held her hand for a while. Half hour and then sang our good night song and left. Of course I tell mom I love her, and she says it back to me.
My right arm is very bad today. I am dropping things, it is shaking and very painful.
This dam headache just won't go away.
The worse thing about this accident is I can't do the things I need to do. And I hate coming back here every night. I am so sick of it. I don't want to be here anymore.
Finished for the night. To painful to continue to type and I have to write in my pain journal yet.
My faith is still very much day to day. I read a passage and it stood out to me that GOD said that Yes I will help you. I am with you. I really do wish I could believe this 100% and to trust. I am a septic at this moment in time. I need to see something real and tangible.
But here I am, stuck in a place that I don't want to even come back to at night. I really would rather sleep on a bench or tent. I don't like the people I live with. I don't trust them. I have to keep everything locked up in my room. I can't leave anything lying around, they will take it.
So I am in extreme pain all the time, more so than before this. and nothing. Still looking.
I am glad I am looking after my mother, I will have to thank her tomorrow for allowing me the opportunity to do this for her. It is wonderful
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
