Hello again
Today I had to go to physiotherapy, and now I am in extreme pain. Third appointment.
Was late getting their, even though I left early. Missed a bus by 2 minutes and decided to take this other bus. Well that made me half hour late. If I would of waited 20 minutes for the other bus, I would of only been 5 minutes late. So had a half hour appointment and it cost me the usual $25.00. Money I can't afford to spend. This is my grocery money I am spending on physio. So I eat even less. Oh well, shit happens.
I also would of been at mom's a little early as well. I really need to be out their. Pray and pray, please. It happens quickly, and mom could be really sick. She isn't but.
I was able to get her some dinner, or make some dinner for her last night. Difficult when your right handed and have to chop with your left hand and do most things with one's left arm. Very different.
And we had time after dinner and dishes for me to read a fair bit to mom this evening. I think she likes this book. Mom is smiling while I read to her.
The life of Pi. So far a good book. When I am done with it, I will sit down and watch the movie with mom.
Her medicine was given to her early tonight, and I finished the spa treatment early. I just stayed until 8 pm tonight. I almost fell asleep, standing up, holding her hand, listening to music.
I can't emphasize strong enough, that it is very important to my mother that I move out their as quick as possible. To enjoy the summer with her, having her over for dinners. See her more often.
It is even more important now, that I found out that my cousin treats her mother the same way as everyone else. Ignores her, OK, not completely, but is not trying to make her life better and try to make her mom healthier.
I really do guess I am unique in how I treat my mother. How I look after her. I thought that, her seeing how I treat my mother, she would follow suite.
She tells me her mom is gone, not all their anymore. So!. My mother is not the same as before, but I won't treat her any differently. Well I do, but I don't look at it as mom being gone. I speak with her the same as I use to. Honest, letting her know what is going on. Asking her questions and having a conversation.
I will continue to make sure mom is healthy, has home cooked meals. This is what I meant, my cousin doesn't bring her any fresh fruit, or home made meals. She just thinks, like the rest, that the meals provided are good enough. Not even close. My cousin won't even bring her mother fresh drinks.
I am unique in I won't let my mother be alone, without someone she can count on. Mom will hold my hand the entire time I am their with her. Except when feeding her, even then, when I let go to do something, mom will try to grab my hand again. I just tell her I will hold her hand again, in a minute. Which I do.
OK time for me to go again.
I really do need to free up time to work on several projects to benefit mom and others.
GOD bless and good night.
Still my faith is day to day.
Kris Schmuland
