Hello again
My right arm is shaking very badly today. This is the worse it has ever been. It was shaking while trying to feed mom. Needless to say, I made a mess. Stuff falling off the fork, spoon etc....
The place I was to move to fell through. My cousin is going to see if her and her husband can work it out and having a male around just won't work. So I was told.
GREAT!
Well mom was and is doing fine. She always looks forward to me being their. She know what time it is that I am coming and is looking for me.
She had a good dinner this evening. Chicken pot pie that I made. And this seafood salad. Plus of course her avocado and fruit and chocolate.
I didn't get to read to her this evening. No matter what that will happen tomorrow. I will give her the spa treatment and when finished I will read to her while standing and holding her hand. As she is falling asleep. Perfect time, I think so. We will see.
Today it came across my mind that one day, I will arrive and mom will not recognize me. I will see it in her eye's. I hope this will never happen. Just thinking about it freaks me out. It makes me want to cry.
It may happen, it may not. So far she knows exactly who I am.
I do want it to stay this way.
Mom is holding her own. Very healthy and from what I can see, somewhat happy. I don't know what she is like during the day.
I am hope to find out soon.
I am looking forward to moving. I need a change. A new beginning..
This is for mom, so I can spend more time with her. I want this, I do need this.
Well not that late, compared to my usual time writing this. But late enough.
Please pray that something comes up soon. I posted an add online to see if anyone wants to share a place.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
