Hello again
I am dealing with a drunk chick upstairs. Constantly accusing everyone or everything. The police are here every other day about her. The landlord is being an idiot about this.
I am not getting any rest. The landlord is over here and staying until late, discussing this mess. I am not even able to write. I am trying.
I need real help to get out of here. I need prayers, big time.
Now I haven't even been able to write the complaint office back. I was just able to finish the letter to the manager of Al Hogg. At least that is done. So if everything goes without stress this weekend, I will be able to get the letter off to the complaint office and print out the letters to give to the manager of Al Hogg.
As this whole nonsense has to stop and stop now. There is no more waiting. Mom is suffering. She is tired and does not want to eat.
I would like to state this. I have been studying,reading everything I can get my hands on, regarding this disease and strokes. I am not an expert, but I do know what I am talking about.
But the biggest thing I can say about being a caregiver is to Love your loved one's, Be patient, have understanding and compassion. It is not your loved one it is the disease.
Now mom tonight was more than happy to see me, and not very hungry, but I got her what she wanted for dinner and she did eat most of it. Slowly though. I have lots of time.
Afterwards I washed her hair and got her ready for bed. While waiting for mom to be put into bed, I read mom over half a dozen pages in the story we are reading.
Mom is loving this story and I am enjoying reading this to her. Because of my voice, I have not been able to sing to mom. But I do hold her hand while she falls asleep. I stand there and let her relax, and just hold her hand.
Mom needs me to be their for her. She depends on me being their every night. And I am fine with this. It takes a commitment and some are not able to do this. For whatever reason. Once one makes this kind of commitment, one has to follow through with it. No backing out. For however long it is for.
If I had the money, I would move mom in with me and take care of her full time. As it is I can't even find a place out in white Rock that I can afford. And this pisses me off.
I just want to be available to mom more often. Mom is my life and I am committed to taking care of her.
It is a matter of principal and doing what is right for your loved one. By living in White Rock, I can take her to her appointments. Be there for her while at the dentist. Get the things done that are needed to get mom the proper treatment she needs.
Well it is late and time to go. I will try to write more tomorrow.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
