Hello again
I am simply writing anything for a title. It is a wet and windy day here. Cold, by our standards.
Bath day for mom. But she got sick this morning and a large bowel movement. At least she emptied herself. It was beginning to be a problem again. To much of the wrong medication.
I have no groceries so I couldn't make mom dinner tonight. The first time in a very long time, that I have not made mom a home cooked meal.
It really does piss me off now. That that asshole would take my grocery gift cards. Knowing full well I have nothing and I cook meals for mom. That I needed those cards. I am feeling violated now. Money, cards.
My mom is the one who is suffering. I need help and I can't get it from anywhere. Even though other's know what happened.
It is bad enough I am not eating, it is worse that I can't make the healthy meals for mom.This is what it is like to live in a place with other's that you don't know.
I would have less living on my own. But mom would not go without a home cooked meal. A matter of fact, she would get more healthy meals and snacks.
So today, is one of those days that I am feeling really lonely and wanted to speak with someone. But didn't happen. In fact, it hasn't happened in about two weeks now. Not a soul. Except for the normal pleasantries of hello and good bye to the staff at Al Hogg, where mom resides.
It is very difficult being this depressed with no immediate help, having to wait and wait. Not good for someone who is depressed.
At least mom's dinner was OK for her. After I warmed it up again and added butter.
And tomorrow who knows what is going to happen.
Pray that GOD rains down his blessings on my mother and myself.
People don't get it. My life is to do what I can to assist mom with her life . To be their and to look after her. Whatever I do I do to make mom's life better. Each and everyday.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
