Hello again
I will start this blog tonight with what has been said to me, allot, lately.
You chose this life.
Did I choose to get in a car accident and have to wear this hard plastic back brace for over a year and a half, because I fractured my back in the accident.
Or did I choose to be on board a bus that crashed.
Or being rear ended while at a stop sign
And having to be in pain all the time, having to take pain killers( mild) To have to walk with a cane now. And maybe for the rest of my life.
Did I choose for my back to go out all the time. And walk doubled over in pain.
Did I choose to be poor, because of this. Or to live in a place I don't want to, because I can't afford to live where I want to. In White Rock.
I think not!
Because of this my life has been ruined. Bad credit, living below the poverty line. Having to take the bus, because of the accidents, and my doctor telling me I can't drive right now.
It seems that my blog is not read that much when I only write about mom. And not bitch and complain. Maybe I am wrong.
It is raining like crazy here in Vancouver. But I can take the rain, compared to the weather in the rest of the country.
Mom is great, considering that she has dementia and has many small strokes. It is a honor to be able to look after mom as I do. A blessed opportunity.
I had some cod in the freezer, so I pouched it in lemon/butter sauce, with fresh ground pepper. She loved this. I served this to her with a nice grain salad. Plus she had some 7 layer dip and crackers left. And of course her fruit.
It feels great, inside, that mom loves to hold my hand and doesn't want to let go.
I got a little bit of money today, so I stopped by this bakery and picked up some petite pastry's mom likes. She knows the bag they come in and when she saw them, her face lit up. The only thing is I have to limit mom or she could eat all of them.
I have this problem, as my father sat down and ate a whole bag of Halloween candy and latter that night had a serious stroke. Which lead to his quick passing. Not even a year after this happened. So it freaks me out when mom eats to much sugary products. I have a problem when she eats, nightly, the Lindt three pack of chocolates. They are very sweet.
I know she will be OK, but I hate that I have to limit mom. I feel really bad about it.
But over all mom is in great health.
Myself, I am just tired. Slept in 2 hour increments last night. Just kept waking up. I have no idea why. And I have been really tired allot lately. So I go to bed, after I download the nights shows, and watch one or two of them. 1 1/2 hours for two shows. No commercials. I haven't even been eating. If you call eating bread, eating. That's what I have. Remember, the $75.00 worth of grocery gift card I had where stolen, with my bus pass money. That was my and mom's groceries for the month. I make dinners for her! If there are left overs I bring that home and have that for dinner. Usually mom eat all of it. Which is a good thing. I need to her to keep her health up. And making and mom consuming healthy meals is the way to do it. Plus the supplement she gets daily and everything else I give her.
Really, I do not eat like mom eats. Not at all.
Anyways, I am going to make toast this evening. And go to bed and watch a couple of shows. Hopefully I will be able to get to sleep early and not wake up every 2 hours, like the last few nights.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
