Hello again
The one thing I need to get across to everyone, is I know what I am. I may have a decent education, but I am nothing, nobody. I have nothing.
But don't get me wrong,I may be nothing or nobody, but I still have power to get what I need or mom's needs taken care of. To do whatever is necessary to do this. But I am still a looser. That is the way I feel about myself.
I have nothing. And I need all sorts of things. Example, I really need a printer, and clothing. The clothes that I do have, that fit me, are falling apart. Disintegrating in front of me. Every time I wash something, it comes out with a hole in it. I am loosing weight and everything is to large for me, plus full of holes.
I will buy mom clothing before myself. I will buy mom everything before myself. I will give my life
The runners I bought less than three months ago, are falling apart. I will take the receipt and the runners back tomorrow.
I brought mom some pasta she likes tonight and she ate all of it, plus the roast beef they served. And of course the usual fruit.
And I washed her hair. This makes mom feel great. Oh yea, when I arrived mom saw my reflection in the window and reached out her hand right away.
I find that I am no longer made at GOD, I am now, just disappointed. He states to ask, seek and and ye shall find. Well I am not finding anything. I am not getting any help at all. I am falling apart physically and mentally. Not fun
I am done. I am no longer going to read the bible to gain anything. I will read it like a novel.
My doctor doesn't get it. Time to find one that does
I have so many things to do,but I don't have the funds to do any of them.
But who cares, right!
Anyways
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
