Hello again
I recently received a comment that suggests I move to Surrey and move into a shared accommodation. Though I do appreciate the comment. I have also, on top of looking for my own place, been looking for shared accommodation in the White Rock, South Surrey area.
I have looked at several of them. I do not do drugs, nor do I drink. I don't want to be around anyone who smokes pot or drinks heavily. I live in this situation already and wish to be free of this. I have also tired to find someone to share a place with. And these were not very good situations.
Why is it necessary to have to move to the same type of environment as I live in now. I would like to just be within walking distance. The travel is allot.
I stated that I have traveled over 10,000.00 Kms. But the fact is I have traveled over 100,000 Kms 175 to 200 kms each and everyday. For two years now. And I would not have it any other way and will continue to do this until the right place comes available. Or for someone to give me a helping hand with a break on rent. I am sure this is out their.
After all I spend my days taking care of an ailing parent. Something 95% of the population would not do. Trust me I see the none visiting relatives. Or, in my case, the daughters of my mother, who barely come to see their mother. Who think they should have a say in my mothers health care. Bullshit, I think not.
This is the same bullshit that Sherri is trying to hand me. The law states that it is the person who is the closes to the person, the one who is their, that makes the health care decisions.
A survey was sent out to the families to inform Fraser Health of what they think and feel about the care of the resident that their loved one lives. And wouldn't you know it, I never received this survey. So it was sent to the person who knows the least about my mother. The girls know nothing about what happens in this place. How mom sits in her own filth until I get their and do something about it. Whether I change her myself or I get someone to do this.
How they are trying to give mom medication, that I expressly forbid them to do. They go behind my back and speak to the individuals who really don't give a rats ass about their mother. Who will write appeasing responses to their questions. Who don't know the truth. And of course the staff at Al Hogg is the one's who made sure it was sent to them, not me. They don't want to know the truth, as I would write it. As I always write it.
Really who could make this crap up about one's life. I am a gong show. Things just keep happening to me. And I really do mind my own business. Except when it comes to mom. I will fight tooth and nail to make sure she is well taken care of. And nobody, I mean nobody is going to cause my mother any harm.
I will be reporting Sherri to the Fraser Health tomorrow. I am done with the crap. I am in to much pain to deal with this nonsense anymore.
Anyways, mom has been over tired lately, Wanting to sleep, but can't. She was very talkative this evening. I understood some of what she was saying, and understood most of her body language. As well as her facial expressions.
I was able to get together some cash this morning, so I bought mom Sushi for dinner. A women was speaking with me, while I was feeding mom dinner. Asking me if I eat while feeding mom, and that I have to eat properly or I won't be any good to mom. Of course mom over hears this. As she understands everything. Just because she can't speak, doesn't mean she does not understand what people are saying. Well mom understood that the women was saying that I should take care of myself before mom.
I will repeat this again, as I mentioned this to the women. MOM IS FIRST I AM LAST. This is the way it has been and will always be. I will be letting mom know tomorrow that everything is alright. I have a belly, so I must be eating. Of course I don't eat all the time. But I am alive
I put mom to bed and of course her nightly spa treatment followed. But I stood their and held her hand. she was just staring off into the air. I was and am worried about her. I feel she thinks she is a burden on me.
Let me make this clear. Mom is not a burden on me now or ever. I look forward to seeing her everyday. To help her out. As she looked after me when I was young. It is my turn to take care of her. And this is what I am going to continue to do. No matter what. No matter how much pain I am in. Which at the moment is considerable. The pain in my right knee is something I have never felt before. By the time I arrived home this evening, I could barely walk the last two blocks home.
I hope mom is alright. I worry so much about her. I know she is bored. Another reason to have my own place. To get her out and visit and/or eat lunch else where.
Midnight again. I guess it doesn't take long to approach this hour, when one gets home at 10:30
Need to go to bed, I am in to much pain to be up any longer. I just want to relax and watch something. Anything
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
