Hello again
So the PGT is going to screw mom again. I just found out today the guy is going on vacation, starting right away. And mom is going to be out of certain cosmetics before he will return. The person and his lack of foresight is going to leave mom without.
I can't afford the cosmetics. As it is I only eat a few times a week.
My back is killing me, and I don't have the funds to pay for the service charge that is required when going to the physio therapist. I am covered for the rest, but not the service charge. The doctor wants me to go and tells me this is the only way you will get your back fixed.
I tell him, I understand, but I am broke and don't have the funds for the service charge. He tells me to find it.
This is $100.00 I don't have.
With this pain, it is hard to move mom around. To change her, put her to bed, etc..... But I do it anyways. It has now been a week since I hurt my back and it is not getting any better.
The pain is so great, I am having a hard time with it. With dealing with everything. I put on a smile when I arrive, but it is hard at times.
I love mom, I change her, put her to bed and this is hard on my back. All the while mom is wanting to hold my hand and when I am not doing this, she is getting upset and trying to hit me.
It is part of the disease, Sun downer. Mom just wants to be loved and to feel secure. This I get, but trying to do everything with my back in pain, is very hard.
I am not in the greatest of moods because of the pain I feel. And the bus trip today didn't make it any better. The bus was packed and it was making feel claustrophobic. Which in turn made me even more upset.
So when I arrived at mom's I had to sit for a few minutes and get my composure. I was extremely agitated. and I didn't want to be with mom while feeling this way.
I am very pissed off at the PGT now. They are acting like gods again.
Time to take action against them.
I need to go to physio before I can't walk, I have no idea what I am going to do. I have no money. Or anyone to help me out.
I am covered for most of the physio except, again, the service charge. This is $25.00 per visit. It may not seem like allot to most people, but when you have nothing, it is allot. I am willing to for go eating to get better.
WOW It even hurts for me to sit her and type.
I fractured my back many years ago and this feels like the same pain. I have not felt like this in a very long time.
Usually when my back goes out I am feeling better within a few days. It never last this long.
OK I am always asking for something. But please pray for me that GOD sees fit to provide me with the necessary funds to pay for the service charges for he physio therapy.
I am in extreme pain and it is not getting better.
Mom tonight was not in the greatest of moods. Very tired and not wanting to eat much. I did, however, convince her to eat before bed.
Once I got her into bed and changed her diapers. She was feeling better. I don't get it, mom wants me to do this for her. I guess it is better than sitting in your own filth for hours. And mom did change me when I was a kid.
Once I put the gloves on it becomes sterile. So it doesn't bother me.
Please pray for me. I do need this.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
