Hello again
I get to mom's and go into her room, to turn down the bed, move the bed to allow me to move mom's chair under the lift. And the roommate starts telling me that there is a baby up on the wall and that my name is Johnston. Or the picture of me on the wall.
She wanted me to call her daughter, that she was to go somewhere. I said I don't think that is going to happen, as you are in bed and it takes time to get you up and changed. I was just in there to turn down mom's bed and grab mom's plates and wash clothes.
And when I came back with mom. The women just would not stop talking. Mom is looking at me. She is very tired of this. Mom just wants to have a decent nights sleep. Is that to much to ask for, I think not.
Mom still did not eat as much as she should eat. Again, she is tired and all she wants to do is go to bed. I am not very happy with this.
Over all mom is healthy. She is bending her knees more and more. Soon she will be able to move herself around, again. As she did before moving into this place. I am working on this problem, every night I get her to bend her knees a little bit more. Gently. Mom did a great job tonight. The furthest I have seen her bend her legs in a long time. She is well aware of what we are doing.
Mom still does not want me to leave at night. And as soon as I get their mom wants to hold my hand. Then she closes her eyes. I have to get her to eat. I am so glad I make sure she gets allot of fruit and healthy foods. I keep reading about what to give to Alzheimer's patients to help slow the progression of the disease. I just say to myself, I have been doing this for years.
I research Alzheimer's and what it takes to help stave off the progression or to slow it down. This research I apply to mom all the time. And I believe in vitamins and supplements as well as to eat healthy. I don't because I can't afford to eat this way. OK I can't afford to eat.
I do make sure mom eats this way, though.
So my hearing is still getting worse. Today, or this morning I could barely hear anything. The landlord came over and was speaking with me. Even thought I told him that I can't hear him. He just kept on speaking anyways. And to read his lips, is very difficult. You see, he is Asian and does not speak English very well at all. To read lips I need the person whose lips I am reading, speak my language.
My hearing was like this for most of the day. OK, at about 3:30 it was OK again.
And I have been doing allot of thinking about things. I have realized that it has been about 20 years since I had a steady girlfriend. Really. I am finding or thinking myself to be very unattractive. I have dated, but they don't get the fact that between a certain time each and everyday I am busy. So I don't end up dating them for very long at all.
I still think about a women I was with a long time ago now. 10 years. We were friends that was turning into something else. But she moved back east to be around her twin sister, who had a baby. They were both from her. I say this as I thought I saw her today. Or someone who looked allot like her. But what could I do. Call her name out in the mall. And if it was her, I couldn't hear to well. I do miss her thought. It was my fault that she left. I was or still am an alcoholic. Even though I have not had a drink in many, many years now. over ten years now. OK I guess it was over ten years that this women left. Because it was a few years after she left that I quit.
Well I have been very busy looking after mom and I travel many hours a day to do this. Again I would never give this up or change the fact that I look after mom. I just want to be living closer to her. Freeing up hours and hours in my day. To work on getting myself healthy again. And to do more for mom. My hearing is not going to get better, it is just going to get worse. I need hearing aids and I really need them. My hearing is screwing up at least three times a week. I mostly hear people mumble.
Now it is after twelve and time to go again.
GOD bless and good night. More tomorrow.
Kris Schmuland
