Hello again
So once again I am told I will be blessed for what I am doing for my mother. First off I don't do anything for mom for a return.
Second, I don't give a crap what happens to me once mom passes away. I only care about what happens now. That mom is alive and OK.
My life for the last 10 years has been looking after my parents, first dad and now mom. This is what I do and am happy for doing it.
Any blessings should come now, not after. It is needed now, not after. Mom deserves more now, not later. Mom deserves to be treated well now, not later. Mom should be taken all over the place now, not later.
I need to do more for mom, now, not later. Take her out and do more and more things for her and with her. I don't complain about the traveling, I only say it takes a very long time to get their and back. But I will never stop doing this.
I complain about having to live with alcoholics that don't give a crap about anyone else but themselves. I complain about not being able to find a place in White Rock. I complain about not living closer to mom. It is not easy wanting to do as much as you can for your loved one, only to be stuck and not getting what is required to give mom the life she deserves.
I need hearing aids and was turned down again from my appeal. Now to take it to the next level. Another appeal.
I am also getting frustrated that every time I go to the doctor, he finds something else wrong with me. And yet I can't get on disability. Upsets me greatly.
So to finish, mom Mary was in a good mood today. We had dinner, she is eating better and more. Which, of course is a good thing. I got her ready for bed and put her in bed. I was to wash her hair again today. But I just can't do it after dinner. Mom is just to tired.
But I will do it tomorrow/today Saturday. I hope to get their early, to take mom out for a walk.
So I need to let you go for now.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
