Hello again
I arrived early to wash mom's hair today.. I keep getting her back wet and her clothing as well. I have only been able to keep her dry once.
I wrap her up and lean her back as far as the wheel chair will go. Not as bad as before though.
I wheeled her over for dinner, And it was the crappy cabbage rolls they serve. Mom and I both looked at the dinner and.... You could imagine. I did, however, have a mango, her papaya, her petite desserts, cheese and a avocado. I did get more sauce to cover the cabbage roll. Which mom some of it.
I am now starting to get worried. She has not been eating allot of her dinner. Not good. I don't have the money to make her home cooked meals every night. Not sure what to do.
I really need to speak with the nutritionist, about what they serve mom. Potato's every night. No pasta. White rice only. tasteless and horrible.
Mom is very tired by dinner. And yet she is only up for about 6 hours by dinner time. And then back in bed for 6:30pm. No wander she is not hungry. Always tired. Nothing to make her hungry.
I will, tomorrow, bring her a hamburger and fries. Will try this.
I need to be out their to do things with her and get her to exercise. Giving her something to do.
I got her into bed and did our nightly spa treatment. I wish mom's daughter's would actually do something for their mother. Get her up earlier. I live so dam far away.
I found the perfect place. A block away. Then this whole thing of my hearing came up
I went back to the doctor today and asked him about the seriousness of my hearing problem. He tells me that if we don't find out why this is happening, he tells me that within two years I could be completely deaf. So I am now going to see a neurologist to see what is the cause of this rapid loss of hearing. And he goes on to ask me if I got the hearing aids yet. I need them and it is important for me. To be able to hear better.
I find a place and it is almost perfect for mom and I. For me to be able to get mom over very easy and quickly. It would take me less than 10 minutes to push her there. Can't get any better than this. Or closer. Well I guess I could be across the street, instead of a block away
But then this whole thing concerning my hearing came up. I can't afford to do anything and I no longer wish to live in Coquitlam. I can't do this anymore. I no longer like the place I am in and the house is sold and the new owners have given us the proper notice.
So I started a campaign on indiegogo to help raise funds for my hearing aids.
Here is the link http://igg.me/at/helpmehear/x/917224
So I need to go now, I am very upset and I have no one to speak to about this. It is crappy to be alone. The only person I have in this world is my mother. No one else. Otherwise I am completely alone. I don't even have friends.
OK, I am busy looking after mom and I travel most of the day to get their and back. So I understand it is hard to have friendships when you have no time. I am OK with this. Mom is more important than anything. I would just like to be closer to her.
I need to do more for her. And if I am not traveling 6 hours a day. I will have more time to have friendships and maybe date. I meet allot of women, But no time to date.
So please if you can, help me hear.
GOD bless and good night.
I really am starting to think that GOD is finding this funny. OK I did screw up a bit in my life. But this much Karma. Come on now. I don't do anything to try to make up for it. I do everything for my mother out of love and the fact mom needs me and really I need her as well.
Kris Schmuland
