Hello again
So tonight I arrived to find mom in bed. Yes it was her bath day, once a week is all they bath her. This is why I wash her daily and put on lotions for her.
Yet mom did want to have dinner in bed on bath days. So it is OK. I was going to put her into bed anyway.
It is a little hard to get use to. That is feeding her in bed. A little awkward, to say the least. But I managed. This way I did not have to get mom into bed. And the care aid came in right after mom finished dinner and asked if it was a good time to change mom. Of course I said. The best time.
This way, when finished, I could just do mom's spa treatment and there is no waiting for anyone to change her. So I can just get it done and then mom does not have to be woken up after she falls asleep, because she is so relaxed. This is a good thing.
Just what I did. And mom was just so relaxed. I don't mind mom being put into bed after her bath on Sunday's. We will get use to it.
Of course it is the weekend and mom does not eat much. As it was today. But she did eat a papaya and a half. Plus some of her dinner. Half of it.
I am afraid, living so far, I will not be their the way I should be, for mom. I really do feel that I need to be their more often. It is starting to look that way. Mom is healthy and well, as happy as she can be for being stuck in a home. Not being able to go out.
This is why I need to be their, to get her out. Now that the weather is improving. Mom needs fresh air, sunshine. And I am the one to do this for her. No one else will. I am mom's servant, and I am happy with this.
Again, the evil thing called money is stopping me. I have none. I mean none. And I have serious health issues of my own I need to address. And my new doctor is in White Rock. Great.
I lost a place, worked out a great deal, but they had to rent it. I looked at a place today. A block away. Nice place, reasonable price. Nice and clean, good space, easy to get mom in and out of.
This brings me to why I dislike the PGT so much. They wasted over $50,000.00 on a companion service, they took the van away from me. And gave it to one of mom's daughters. ( To take mom out, and this never happened, as I said it wouldn't)
And they have made multiple promises to me, and broke all of them.
I am so upset today, I found the perfect place. Yes better than the one, I worked out a deal for. And even closer. Again I have nothing and no money.
Everything takes money.
I pray and pray. I ask and ask GOD for help. And nothing. I go without food all the time. I would rather get mom good meals and healthy foods than get things for myself.
I just need a real miracle right now. And right away.
I am pissed and not doing well. I am slowly feeling I am getting worse. Maybe it is just the stress. I need serious help this week. I have to make a decision now, not latter.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
