Hello again
I am going to start by saying that my ex family. This is now how I will always speak of them. I found out they are spreading extremely negatives things about me on twitter.
This is why they are the biggest pieces of shit on the planet. Trailer trash, and this is an insult to trailer trash all over the place. They are the biggest losers of all time.
Yes, by society's standards I am a looser. Ok I have nothing. I live way below the poverty I don't eat all that often. I only have two pairs of pants and they don't fit. I own shorts. Runner's that are falling apart. But it is all Ok. I am fine with it. Because mom gets the fruit she needs, the drinks she likes and other snack she enjoys.
The truth be known. If GOD were to speak to me and say that HE will completely restore and heal mom. but I have to go with HIM right then and there. No questions asked. I would just say to HIM. Let's be on our way. I would give up my life for my mother. If she needs a lung. Mine is hers. What is mine is mom's.
I don't think of myself when I get anything. I have been doing everything I can to keep mom in her snacks and drinks
So to my nephew I went to the police and if you ever show up at mom's home, I can call the police and you will be charged. You assaulted your grandmother.
I had so much to say, but I don't want to say anything else.
Except this.
I was going to be nice and remove my name from the will. I even have spoken to a lawyer and the PGT about this. But not anymore.
They will never see a dime of my mother's money. I will hire a lawyer and fight this until I either win or there is no money left. And if I do win, I will just donate the money to Alzheimer's research.
I was out walking before writing this and had lots to say. But I guess I got it all out. Oh well.
Now about mom
Over the last few weeks I have been able to get mom to use a spoon again. I still have to put the food on it, and put it into her hand, but she takes it from there. Mom can pick up small food items and eat them without any help from me. These are good things She is getting better at it. And soon she will be able to fill the spoon herself. I will keep working on it.
Tonight it was bath day for mom. She was very tired. She was hungry, but did not want to eat. I did get her to eat, while she was pushing my hand away. She wanted the papaya, but didn't. Once I got her into bed, mom was calm and relaxed. This is all she wanted.
Well I really did have allot to say. But on thing I do know is I have respect and the love of my mother. This is all that I need and is good enough for me.
Now I am very tired and need to go to bed.
I will say this. I have cancelled knee surgery, as it would mean I would not be able to see mom for a few weeks. And I can't do this to her. I am in pain all the time, but will never let mom know this. People are always saying to me, How can you keep traveling that distance everyday. I wouldn't be able to do it. Well they aren't me. I do it out of caring. out of love for mom. The fact mom needs me to be there for her.
I hate to brag, but once in a while I need to do this. Actually I have never before bragged about this or anything What I do for mom is a great thing. And I am proud of what I do.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
I will never again waste my time or use the pages of this blog to ever mention them again. They are now and forever more not my family. As far as I am concerned I am the only child. And will think and act this way. I will no longer allow them to even take up space in my mind. They are not worth it. Period.
So say what you want about me. I know the truth and that is all that is to it. And it is all I need. I am to busy to take the time to even acknowledge them. So write away. The more you write, the more people will read what I write and they who read my words, can make up their own minds
