Hello again
I is interesting how the less I eat, the less I can eat different types of foods. The body seems to be hyper vigilant and rejects the processed foods.
Example I love cheese and in the last 6 months I can't eat cheese anymore. I have not been able to eat eggs or drink milk in a very long time. Bread is out of the question. You might as well put an air hose down my throat. My stomach bloats up right away.
It all started when I stopped eating anything from a can. Now any processed foods and preservatives I eat, my body immediately rejects it and I suffer greatly from it.
My body craves whole, raw foods and anything else it doesn't want. I can eat chicken, fish and I only eat beef once in a while. I do not eat any pork products at all and haven't in many years now. I can only eat bread made without flour. And it is extremely expensive $5.50 a loaf. Come on now.
Now to eat like this, I can't afford it. So I am left going without. It is Ok though. As anything I have for funds I buy mom things first.
She needs it. Tonight mom was served this pork product that looked like someone threw up on the plate. Dog food. Mom usually won't eat this. As I bring her good home cooked meals. But she ate this tonight and I could see by the look on her face, she did not enjoy it at all, each and every bite. But she ate it as I had nothing good for her. I haven't in a while and she knows this.
I am saddened by the fact I have not been able to make her a home cooked meal in several weeks now. And mom has to eat this crap. Cold, tasteless and not even enough on her plate to even keep her alive. She is loosing weight. Which is not a good thing.
This is how the patients die quickly. Starvation. My crows at times eat better than they do. If it were not for the fruit I bring her. I really don't know what would happen. I am sure mom would be very sick right now.
I know I keep her healthy with what I bring her. And I feel really guilty for not being able to bring her this.
Well the PGT is still refusing to release the photo's I guess I have to go to court to get this taken care of. I don't know any other way of dealing with them.
Stephen Flynn is being very difficult right now.
So anyways, I need to go. I downloaded a few of the new season premiere's from tonight and want to watch them.
By the way I forgive my sisters for themselves. For they don't know what they are doing.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
