Hello again
Today I woke up and thought my back was getting better. I was wrong. Today I could barely walk. I am hunched over and walking like I am 90 years old.
But I got up and got ready and left to go see mom. A little help from pain killers. Not so good. I don't like to be doped up.
I again say, that no matter what I will get up and go see mom. I am here to serve her. I will, no matter what, continue to be their for my mother.
I have been thinking about things. First I will continue to ask for help. Even though I don't receive any from anyone or any organization. I will continue to ask. As mom is to important to not ask.
I am just a human being, I am not perfect, I don't expect perfection. I actually can feel, and love another. I care about someone other than me. My life is to help mom.
The staff keep asking me if mom knows me, if she responds to me. Well of course. You should see the look on her face when I get their.
Mom remembers just about everything that is going on. Mom is able to make decisions. Mom talks to me. OK it is not as we speak. But I have been around mom throughout this process that I know most of what mom is saying. Not only that, but I have a great understanding of non verbal communication. I see, I hear, I can feel what mom is saying.
And I am finally getting mom to the point of being able to speak clearly. When mom is completely relaxed she speaks clearly. As in tonight. When one of the staff members was giving mom her nightly medicine, I was speaking with mom and mom was responding to me. The nurse noticed this and said, she responds to you.
I am finding mom to be extra tired lately. I have to find out why, from the nurses. And I found out that the home does not even have my phone numbers in case of emergencies. Only my older sister's number. This was corrected immediately. I make the decisions for my mother, not my sister's. I am their and they are not.
I guess it is time to go to court and correct this problem.I need to get committee of person over mom so there is no question of who makes decisions for mom. As it stands, it would be to late for mom by the time the staff contacts my sister's and me to make a decision for mom. I am their and have made all the decision thus far for mom. And I will be bringing this up again with them. And making my point. Clearly! To each and every manager of the Al Hogg pavilion.
So it is now 1:48 am and I continue to be in pain. I need to lie down.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
