Hello again
Well, my Internet and the other services are now gone. So I have my phone plugged into the USB port and am using the phone as my hot spot. The problem is that I only have a 3gb plan on my phone. And this is not much. But I think I am still on the unlimited free time I got with my new contract. I will have to phone Rogers tomorrow and find out. But I think it was only for a month and the month is almost up. And maybe see if I can get an Internet connection through them. Right I can, but I need a $100.00 deposit. This will be a business connection. As with my phone.
The Internet conection is everything to me. It is my entertainment, my communication tool etc.......
Now I was late getting to see mom today. As the landlady was over and getting Telus installed in the house.
I am with Telus and cannot get their connection, because I owe them money. I explained that it is because, 1, I spend my money on mom first. 2, I have not had any extra funds. I
I only have so much and that it that. I am trying to start a organization. www.adsaac.com.. But I have not been able to pay the monthly fee to keep my web site up and running. I worked for hours to build it to where it is now.
It is a wonderful idea, a resource site that offers the ability to have representative agreements written, counselling and a resource to agencies that assit our loved one's with abuse issues. I was going to start with Vancouver, listing all the resources that are available and then my province and then Canada. City by city. This is something that is desperately needed. There is no web site that has complete listings of who to call for help with seniors abuse related issues. Where to get help!
I hate to loose this work and site.
Now today with mom. Before I left today, I made mom honey mustard chicken breast with a baked potato. And a salad. I got their just after 5 pm. I have been getting their around 4 - 4:30 pm. I warmed the dinner up and mom was really hungry today. She couldn't wait and was anxious.
They, once again, served mom 3/4 of a sandwich. Where is the dinner. I would love to bring mom dinners every night. I just don't have the money for groceries. I will spend whatever I have on doing this for mom, before I eat. And it is as simple as that! I will eat popcorn, so I can give mom delicious meals. Yes the home supplies mom with dinners. But I have mentioned to you what they have been giving mom lately.
On top of mom eating, she was also wanting to have the spa treatment done.
I would like mention something about Dementia. People have what is known as sun downer. This is where the individual is lively during the day and at night they get worse. They experience more confusion and other symptoms of their disease. I am always their for mom in the evening. So sometimes mom is very, I would have to say, grumpy and anxious, very tired. I don't see mom during the day, when they say she is lively. Yet I don't care what mom is like. She can get mad at me, and swear at me. I will still love her and always will love her. When she gets mad because she needs to go to the bathroom. She squeezes my hand and gets very angry. I just tell her I love her. I tell her that she should get mad at me, rather than the staff.
Allot of people lately have been telling me I am a good son. I just turn and say, if I am a good son. It is my mother who taught me to be this way. To give of myself. I am here to serve mom, and that is the way it is to be. I am here to serve GOD and my mother. This is my service in life at this moment in time.
I am extremely happy with this arrangement. I believe that this is what GOD wants me to do. Period.
So after dinner, I gave mom her spa treatment. It makes me extremely happy and fills my soul with joy to have mom so relaxed because of this. I finish and mom just wants to hold my hand while waiting for a staff member to get her ready for bed. Mom loves the music I play for her on my phone. If I have the phone on the bed beside her. She reaches for it. Mom loves it when I put the phone on her chest. She can feel the music and gets the best sound from this. We are all built for a purpose, we all have a purpose. And mom and GOD is one of my purposes. I also believe that the organization is another one of my purposes. It is sound.
I am so happy when I leave at night. I am so filled with joy I am ready to tear up just thinking about it.
Tonight, after the staff got mom ready for bed, which includes putting her to bed. I had to finish the spa treatment, by putting lotion on her arms and hands. Separate lotion for her hands and arms. She was very tired and became mad at me and wanted to scratch me. But this is the illness. Mom was tired and just wanted to sleep. I just told her I loved her and sang to her. Gave her big hugs and kisses. She just smiled and I knew it was all good. I sang our good night song to her and she closed her eye's and went to sleep. It make me so happy and. Well I can't describe how I feel inside of me. It is something I have never felt before.
I am going to stay longer at night and just hold mom's hand while she falls asleep. I know mom will love this and so will I. I am doing GOD's will.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
