hello again
So last night I did not sleep. At all. I expected a phone call. But thank GOD it never happened.
But today, I arrived and mom was still speaking a mile a minute. I can understand her, when she slows down her speech.
She does not speak, as we do. Mostly she mumbles. But I can understand her. I am an expert at non verbal communication. And this pays off when speaking with mom. Mom and I talk, laugh and cry. I know she understands everything that is said.
But the hospital and staff don't think she understands anything. Or actually I don't even think they care. They just do as they wish.
They just think I know nothing about this disease of psychology. It is OK, I don't need to brag about anything. I have mentioned my education background to them. But they obviously didn't hear me. It is the doctor that is starting to see that I maybe know what I am talking about.
You know I really do not even care, what they or even my sister's think. As long as GOD and I know the truth. That is all that matters.
My mother needs a new environment.
So my fast starts now. As I don't even have enough funds to make mom dinners. So I don't eat. Mom needs things, and what money I have I need to get mom things.
As I have said over and over again. Mom is first and I last. Everything for mom is the only way I can live.
Mom is the only family I have left. I don't count my sisters as family. They do nothing for mom. And neither do any other members of the family. So mom is the only one left. And when she goes, so do I.
Mom still has the feeling of giving up. I can see it in her eye's. Again I don't blame her one bit.
It is getting ridiculous at how long it is taking for mom to be released.
And the PGT is still being the pain, that they are always. They don't keep their word or even care, that they are abusing my mother and myself. Especially mom.
I can't do the things I need to do for mom, with the traveling that I do. And the PGT knows this and this is the way they are dealing with it. By not keeping their word.
Mom deserves the best.
You know it still upsets me greatly, that a dog, got $18,000.00 in donations and I can't even get $1.00 from anyone. Or even any help at all. All I get is nonsense from all involved.
It is late and I do need sleep. I am still on guard, as I don't know, if tonight is the night I get the call.
So GOD bless and good night
Kris
