Hello again
Tonight mom was trying to tell me something. But she was speaking so fast that it was hard to understand her. I need her to slow down and then I can get most of what she is saying.
I do know one thing now, is that mom looks to be her protector and provider. I say this by mom looking at a picture of dad, as well as myself. And me saying that I wish dad was still here. Mom agreed.
You see dad was tough as nails and would not of let any of what has happened, go on. He was through the war and saw many, many people get killed .
Myself, I am tough, but I have a soft core. Which makes it hard to be the tough person that dad was. Mom needs me to be more like dad. And I need to be more like dad.
I need to make my mind up on what it is I am going to do and just do it. No matter what. I cannot let up and have to keep the pressure on. Not like my other attempts at going after the PGT, or Riverview and the staff their.
Pressure is what is needed, in this situation. I have already wrote the government. And I have asked and asked the PGT to live up to their promises. And nothing.
But they could care less they cost me a lucrative settlement with ICBC. They cost me two business's now. We didn't have anything to do with that. You can't blame us for this or that. Who else would I blame. Mom needed things and they refused to release funds. So I took care of it myself. And I did it without reservation and a second thought.
Mom needed it and it is up to me to provide for her and to fight for her. Even if it means taking on the PGT and anyone else who gets in my way. Or causes mom problems. Without reservation!
I am mom's support, and her son. I said to my parents years ago I would take care of them, when they are older and this is what I am doing and will continue to do. No matter what.
I know this is what GOD wants me to do.
Tonight was a night were I had nothing to give mom. I took in empties of my roommates to get mom a water and a coke. That was it. No fruit or snacks.
The worst part of it was, I had no dinner for her. She was not happy with the dinner she had, but ate it anyway. She got made when I told her I have no money to buy groceries. But I will do my best to get make her dinners. The food their is horrible. It is up to me, if I love my mother. To make sure she gets proper and delicious meals.
And I have been doing my best. I cried when I told her that I didn't have anything to bring her, and I don't know what will happen tomorrow. Today, now. I have nothing. Not a penny in my pocket. All I have for mom is the water, a little bit of her juice left and a coke. Nothing else.
Again, I don't care if I eat. I just want mom to have excellent meals. I am very emotional right now, as I write this.
You see I know people who will take all sorts of meals to the homeless drug addicts, but will not help me out, with meals for my mother. They are trying to get them to Christ. All and good, but what about the Christians who actually need help. That are not drug addicts, and are doing what their father has told them to do. Honor your mother and father and honor the widow. Give of yourself, and be their for others. Shame on them.
It is now 2:40 am and I need to sleep. If I get any. I really mean I am extremely upset that I cannot bring mom anything today. Not even a piece of fruit. Or her favorite chocolate.
Anyways GOD bless and good night.
Until I return.
Kris
