Hello again
So today I had two of the same loss of time as yesterday, but it is more involved today. First time today I remember getting on the Canada line. Then I am walking half a block from the hospital. Interesting I said.
Well this next time today is more complicated. I am on the bus and I remember hearing the next stop is Willingdon. Well here is where the interesting part comes in.
Next thing I know, I am being shaken by a paramedic, going Kris, Kris. And I just said what, what. Now I am in my bedroom, just standing their, with the TV on and loud. And there is two paramedic's and a few police in my home. They are asking me, do you know where you are. Well, Yes in my bedroom. At home.
They take me to the living room and start asking me questions. As are you OK. Has this happened before. Where are you coming from. What is the last thing you remember. I tell them. I am OK, I don't sleep much and I have not eaten in over two weeks now. I go to see mom everyday in White Rock. She has Dementia. And they ask me the story and I tell them.
I also told them this happened to me yesterday, I don't recall two hours. And today it was one hour the first time and well, one hour this time as well.
The police took information from me. Checked me out. The paramedic's took my blood pressure and checked me out. My blood pressure is really low. I have a bit of a fever. My vision is off.
They could not tell me why this is happening. And asked me to come with them to the hospital to run tests on me. I just said no. I can't, I will go to the doctor's and if it happens tomorrow I will go to the hospital. I promise.
The police are asking me why I have not eaten, and the answer I give them is I have no money, the PGT has promised me $10,000.00. And now they said that they did not say this. And I cant get to the food bank, because of my having to walk with the cane. And it is too far away. I ask Welfare for help, I tell them I am not eating and they just ask me, why I did not budget. I showed the police the $5.00 cheque and told them this is what I am to survive on for the month.
I told the police that I am out of it. I am in a daze all the time. And my stomach is really hurting me. I really don't know what to do. I told the police and the paramedics. Well this is all a big commotion. The paramedics took blood from me. Did a few other tests. I don't know what for.
The police are telling me to phone some family members and get yourself groceries. You have to eat and eat now. Or at least tomorrow, Sunday. So we can tell if it is related to the fact that you are not eating. I tell them this is one of the symptoms, of starvation, delusions, fainting and the other effects of starvation. I just told them, It is not going to happen. I have no one to call and get help from. I write a blog and put it out their,that I haven't eaten in a long time. And I wrote about the fact I lost two hours yesterday. And well, officer's, nobody has responded, or even concerned about me not eating.
Nobody has even come forward. It is OK. I told them. I am even praying consistently about getting help with this. I told them of my dreams about Chinese food. Well this hole ordeal went on for 1 and 1 half hours. As a matter of fact, they all just cleared out, about 15 minutes before I started to type this, tonight.
Yes I am completely starving and so very, very hungry. I told them all about the whole incident with the PGT and how the guy Chris Brettell is a coward and is tough on the phone, and hanging up on me. And telling me they never said anything. Even though I have emails, that says so. It does not make a difference I never said this. I tried to tell him, it was not him, but I realized he knows it and is just playing games.
. He should not be looking after this. I want to speak with the real PGT.
So I promised the police I would go to the hospital if I cant get anything to eat tomorrow.
Anyways, I had to tell mom tonight that I have nothing for her. No drinks, or cheese or any kind of snack. I was crying like crazy while telling mom this. I don't recall a time when I have not been able to bring her a drink and snacks. OK yes once I think, a few years ago. I make sure mom has something. At all costs, and sacrifices.
But mom ate and we did the spa treatment. I also gave mom a manicure. Tomorrow I will put some nail polish on her. I put her to bed. Brushed her hair 50 times. As I always do. I rubbed her hands to maintain circulation Especially her left hand. I always rub and massage her left hand for 5 to 10 minutes a day. This is the arm that is hard for mom to use. The drugs are at fault for this.
I sang my good night song for her. And gave mom huge hugs and kisses. She closed her eyes and said good night.
I am going to go for a walk to see if I can find anything to eat. Anything will do.
I doubt it. I thought GOD would help me with this. HE says HE will supply all of your needs. Well me starving to death is not one of my needs.
And if I do and stop writing, It is the the Public Guardian and Trustee of BCs fault. Chris Brettell and Stephen Flynn.
So I am going now and I hope I find something. I really am hungry.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
