Hello again
Computer worked this morning
printed out allot of posters
Put them up from main train hub to the PGT's office
Continued to pray for a great Christmas for Mom and I
No presents, no nothing
One week to Christmas from today
Can't take it anymore
Mom and I deserve better.
I work hard for mom
I am an advocate for mom.
I am down to one pair of jeans with no pockets
So I am going to give you all some background on me. Their is over 2 years worth of blogs that I have to convert and put up here. Wordpress shut me down, because Riverview threatened to sue me. They have no backbone. And it is from the beginning. So one day when I can find a program that will convert this I will put all the blogs up.
Anyway, I use to drink and smoke pot. Allot of pot and allot of beer. But it has been many, many, many years since that person. I have change so much. But I quit to be a better person. After my grandfather passed away from Alzheimer's. I needed to find a cure and something to help stave off or prolong one's cognitive abilities. Then dad got it. Yes it. There is no other way to describe this horrible disease.
I went back to school to finish off what I started in the states. Have done this now. I have to thank this one pastor for getting me back into my Christianity. I have always been a Christian. No one else in my family is.
I have walked, hitch hiked, taken buses, trains, rented cars, bummed rides. All to see my dad and mother. I have been all over the lower mainland to visit my parents and spend time with them. I have spent, thousands of dollars on my parents. And I don't care about it. I have learned that money is not most important thing in life. I found that family, love, and kindness. And the most important thing of all is the journey on our way through life. To help those how are in need, to help those who cannot help themselves.
I have learned to stand up for what is right, no matter what anyone thinks of it or me. To do what ever is necessary to do what is right. To fight for the right of my mother and others, who cannot speak for themselves and who are targets of the whole medical system and the Public Guardian and Trustee of BC. Who do nothing to help them, only warehouse them until they die.
No treatments plans, no treatment, period. Just drugs and more drugs. Physical and chemical restraint.
Don't you all think that after 10 years of being around Alzheimer's and Dementia, as well as the medical community. That I would be an expert on what is going on within this medical community that deals with Alzheimer's and Dementia. Don't you think I have seen everything that goes on. I have! And more. I don't say anything, as I have ADSAAC to use to stop abuse.
I have to be care full. I have my mother to take care of and be their for her. And combining my education, with my first hand knowledge of Alzheimer's and Dementia, as well as my continuous research on this subject. I would consider myself an expert!
I have seen first hand three of my family members go through this. And two of them dying of this disease. I have seen more than any of you want to see. To see one of your family members die of this disease is hard enough but to see two of them and a third with Dementia. And watching my mother's life change so much from who I know her as. Yes I have been hardened by this experience, but I have more feelings and emotions now than I every have had in my life.
I am more alive than ever before. I am seeing everything for the first time. I see the journey and everything along the way. I take life moment by moment. And I see the need to help those less fortunate. Yes that is including myself.
I am not selfish in anyway. I would just like clothing, something nice for a change. Music in my life that does not sound crappy. Like all of these cheap stereos sound like. I love good music. But my ears are so sensitive, that they cannot handle the cheap systems. I never, when I have driven, listened to the radio or stereo in my car. As the poor quality of the sound system, gave me a headache and hurt my ears. I cannot even listen to my ear buds. I cannot even put anything over my ears. I have had this problem all my life. When I hear music the way it is to be heard, my soul comes to life. I feel the relationship between the cords and the song it's self. I am wrapped up in the emotions that were intended to be heard.
This is something I have searched for, for sometime now. I have not been able to afford this though. I love watching movies and certain TV shows. But no TV.
I am now praying again and asking for help to make this a wonderful Christmas for my mother, and maybe me.
GOD bless and good night
