Hello again
I still can't believe I received a $5.00 cheque. I will never cash it.
Anyways, you know in the movies a family gives the wrong gifts to charity and they scramble to get them back only to just forget about it. Well today, I had some women's clothing to donate, as well as children's party items. They packed into two bags. And I always carry a bag with mom's things in it. Her drinks, snacks, sauces for her dinner, butter and anything else mom might need. I also put extra items in their to keep me warm. The multi layered look. As nothing else to keep me warm.
So, because I had three bags and could not carry all three with one arm. Cane in the other. I put one of the bags on top of the other one. I get to the Elizabeth Fry Society for battered women and put them down. I took my bag and placed it next to the other's. I was speaking with the people their. As I do this often. You see I collect clothing to donate. And then after I just left. It was not until I got half way to see mom that I realized that my bag with mom's things in it was not with me. Than I realized that my North Face Jacket was in the bag. It is old. I bought it at least 6 years ago. I think I brought this up before about contacting North Face to get it fixed. Anyways. that was a Gore-Tex jacket, waterproof. and an added warmth to my many layers.
Anyone who ever new me or has seen me, Has seen me in this jacket. Now my first reaction was to recall all the movies with this happening at Christmas. Then I thought, I have to get it back because this is all I have to keep me dry. Everything else does not work and is not even warm enough.
Then I thought of the movies again and said to myself, I hope who ever gets it needs this jacket and keeps them dry. What am I to do, go and tell them that this is my jacket. I don't think so. I gave so I will just leave it their. And I kind of new I was to give the jacket away today. I don't know why. And I really have nothing else to wear. I mean I am now without a jacket. Ok the lining was a bit torn, but the outside of it was in good shape and it still kept me dry.
Anyways the PGT is now threatening me with not helping get to see mom anymore. This is just plain old abuse. My mother relies on me to be their everyday. And it use to it. And needs it. They are saying they will not even help with the lotions. I pay for most of it. But with a $5.00 cheque I won't be able to pay for any of it. Mom is almost out of everything. Ok mom is out of most of the items. Except two of them. I don't know where I am going to get the money to buy these items. I don't even have the $151.00 dollars it takes to buy the bus pass to see her. And it is not very far from the end of the month. I don't even have the money to replace the fruit and snacks as well as her drink I lost today.
I am screwed and this is the PGT's fault. They are cowards and thieves. Corrupt as they come. "Remember it is my opinion" I just have to say this. As I am going to be lashing out at the PGT for some time to come.
Mom will not tolerate me not being their for one day. This is bother her greatly. And Oceanside now on this bit about them putting her to bed. It is pissing mom off greatly. And this is not good for mom. As mom is to be discharged and the more upset she gets the longer it will take to discharge her.
Now again the PGT. I will not stop until they are taken down and Stephen Fylnn and Chris Brettell are Fired. I will stand out front every day day in and day out. Until they get the point.
Oh they will supply me with the needed funds or they will be abusing my mother.
This is where I need your help,. Write me letters in support of this.
Oh yea I am not going to write asking for help anymore. What is the point. I have not lied about anything and I am completely without anything. Now not even a waterproof, some what warm jacket. The jacket thing is OK though. It was to happen, whether I liked it or not.
But the other thing. This is what I get just before Christmas, threats about not being able to see my mother. Not a single bit of help from anyone out their. And I am read by many many different countries. I guess people everywhere are the same. This is why I don't really like people. In general. They are not willing to give someone who needs it, a hand.
So allot of people lately have been asking me if I am worried about getting Alzheimer's. I tell them that it doesn't matter anyways. I will die alone. As I know no one now, and no one to even call a friend. I don't talk to anyone, except mom. And I am alone all the time. I mean all the time. I have not gone out for coffee with anyone in about 6 months. If it were not for the occasional conversation I have on the bus. Or with my roommate. I don't talk to anyone and I am completely and absolutely alone.
PGT and fight for even the ability to see my mother After the PGT telling me they will help me move to White Rock and give me a lump sum of over $5.000 for a total of $10,000.00 But guess what It was an absolute lie. As they always tell everyone.
God willing mom lives for another 20 years. But, again, when mom passes away. I am going to dust myself off. Kill myself. I will not be able to take the complete loneliness of that. At least I have mom to talk to and look forward to doing so everyday. And I sometimes don't shut up. I do amuse mom though. I make her laugh at some off the things that come out of my mouth. I am glad.
I am ready to do this now. But I wont because I have to be their for mom.
I miss having a girlfriend. Someone to speak to and do things with. Even if it is just going for a walk. After all if I had a girl friend now, she would understand I just finished my graduate degree and I am poor. No more student loans. I would be receiving one in about two weeks. But not anymore.
So GOD bless and good night
Kris
Oh yea I will not except anything less from the PGT than to call me by my new found tittle.
