Hello again
Today when I went into town, all the posters were not up where I put them. So they were taken down. And when I got home tonight I started to print more copies and I got to 5 pages and the printer decided it did not want to work anymore. And I have absolutely no money to go and make copies. I need to put up more posters tomorrow, for Monday morning. When the staff of the PGT come to work. From the Water front station.
I will be making my picket sign tomorrow morning. Because Monday I will be out in front of the PGT building. Well across the street, so they can see. I have nothing, so there is nothing to loose by doing this.
The posters, start out with Scrooge on the top. And then states, the PGT are ruining Christmas for my mother and I. Then an email address. I really want to print out at least 50 copies to put up tomorrow. I try the people upstairs to see if they have a printer.
So today I am starting to feel real stress about Christmas, with only 8 days left. I don't know what to do.
I need to make this and all Christmas's the greatest for mom. I will be their for Christmas dinner. They are having it at noon. I can eat as well. But I have to pay a fee, of $10.00.. Well this is not going to happen, as I just mentioned I have not even a small amount of change in my pocket. I had to use the last $2.00 I had to buy laundry soap. The cheapest I could find. Mom wants one of my white t-shirts so I have to clean them and bring it for her tomorrow. So laundry it is I am doing while I write this.
You all could check my closet to see exactly how many articles of clothing, I actually have. My closet is becoming very empty. Cooked oats is dinner for me tonight. And tonight mom barely touched her dinner. More rice and mom is sick of the bland, boring rice. She gets it so often, I tell them stop giving mom so much rice.
You see when I go to see mom, Mom wants all of my attention. I completely understand this. As she gets no attention at all during the day and then here I come. Mom does not even want me to talk with anyone else but here. I, again, can completely understand this. From the moment I get their until I leave I am right beside her. And I can't even leave or mom gets really made at me. I made this mistake once. And not anymore. I wait until mom goes to the washroom, then I go, no matter how long it has been since I last went. I also think that it is not fair, that mom has to wait and wait to go.
By the way I think there is allot of reverse sexism in the world. If I was a single women, doing what I am doing and barely making it. Not knowing when my next meal will come from. Or where the next couple of dollars will come from to get mom some fruit and drinks and snacks. I would showered with help..
But I am not and I don't even get a good job Kris. What I get is, Get a job Kris, that is the women`s job . I would never do that. I don`t have the time for that. How can you spend so much time traveling.Does not become to much. Why don`t you take time off. Yea right, you don`t do this, you don`t give her your clothing or buy her underwear and clothing. etc..... Well I do all of this and more.
If I were the women, I would have more help than I could ever need. And then some. But I am the son, who loves his mother. And I have two sisters who would never do what I am doing and they barely go to see mom. Now this is our dying mother. And yes she is dying. There is no doubt about this. What happens with Alzheimer`s and Dementia is they die prematurely. Early for their lives. And there is no cure for this, all we can do is try to extend their lives and to make what time they have left on this planet, great. I don`t even know from one day to the next if mom is going to be OK. That is how fast things can change with these diseases. No one knows.
I would never forgive myself if I did not spend as much time as possible with my mother and do everything I could possibly do for her.
See this is why I ask for help. It is Christmas next weekend. My mother and your mother deserves the best Christmas possible. Would you not do this for your mother. I know you would.
Really, it is GOD who said Love one another, give until you have nothing left to give. And then give even more. Be like the good Samaritan.Not like everyone else who walked right by the man down on his luck and beaten by the world around him. Ready to give up on life, but his mother is their and he needs to be here for her.
This is the time of the year, when all our hearts should open up to the downtrodden, as I am. I am doing the best I can. But sometimes it is not good enough. And my mother has to go without. And I am just dead to the world at times.
I don`t even have a TV, or stereo. My clothing are falling off of me, and are falling apart.
I beg and plead with you all one more time.
Please help, with anything.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
