Hello again
Every time I turn around there is another list. I can't even get anything of mine done. Well no more. I spoke with my counselor and he has stated that I am to not do this anymore. For my own sanity. I have so much of my own crap to do and get through. I am not capable of doing anything for anyone.
I am not doing anything anymore around here. I can't take it anymore. Everyone expects me to get things done. Then with the fake compliments. Really, they just think I am stupid and don't know the bullshit that is trying to be sold to me.
I am not well lately. I don't feel good, I feel that I am boxed into a corner. I have no real freedom to do as I wish.
Today I needed to just be by myself, with no one around me. Just me. I got exactly 4 hours of it. I need and want 24/7 of just me time.
So I am now trying to get something done tonight. I needed to write the police officer and send her some photo's of mom's chair. But the email address is wrong and gmail won;t except it. Can't send it. And Gmail won't let me go far enough back in my photo's to get the photo's that I need. Piss me off as it is I am already extremely pissed off. Can't say anything without someone getting upset. I speak my mind and it seems that I can't do that here.
I can't even write what I want.
I have so much to do. I am just stuck and don't know where to start.
I want to write about mom. I need to write about mom.
I need to give mom and memorial service. Again I ask for your help. No one else seems to want to assist me with this.
https;//www.gofundme.com/ka556fdk Maybe I could get some help to do this for my mother. It is closer that I need. So I can move on with creating a new beginning
Sncerely
Kris Schmuland
Still I don't feel as if GOD is around me, helping me, in anyway. Please pray that I can find my way to faith again.
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