Hello again
Let me tell you the hard facts. If I don't feed mom she will die. It is not as if the day staff are trying at all to get anything into mom. I see it. I am not stupid. They even have said to me, at breakfast and lunch. Well, that is not how is to be. It is suppose to be 1 tbs every 5 minutes. So not doing as directed.
It is I who is getting the most thickened water and thickened Resource, Just like boost but with more nutritional value in it.
I am getting mom on a feeding Schedule.
I am arriving at 2:00 pm now and leaving at 8:00 pm. As soon as I arrive I give mom as much as she will take. 4 or 5 tsp of resource and 8 tsp of thickened water. I let mom rest a while and then, an hour or so, we do this again.
Today it was 5 feedings, yesterday 4 feedings.
In between, mom has a rest. I just sit there holding her hand.
If this is what it takes to keep mom alive and healthy, so be it. Than this is what I will do.
Someone even said to me, it is like I have a noose tied around my neck. Not so. I am in this for the long haul and won't give up.
It is not mom's time to die. I know this. I feel this. So it is so.
GOD never said this was going to be easy. GOD said it what I am suppose to be doing.
Taking care of my loved one. Honour your mother and father. What that means is to be there for them, no matter what.
I will do whatever it takes to make sure mom is kept alive. Whatever it takes.
Yes I do understand this is a slow process, and mom will eventually eat food again. I say a month from now, I will be able to get real food into mom. Maybe even less time.
I know what all the staff are saying,. But guess what it is not them who I listen too. I do understand their opinion. But they need to understand my belief.
I saw the miracle already. That is how I know, mom will be OK.
All of this is part of what is needed to be done to protect our loved one's. Yes the doctors have their opinion, but listen to what your gut has to say, listen to your heart.
We don't have to listen to everything the doctors say. It is their opinion. And that is all it is. They don't know for sure. All they can do is give you their opinion, based on past experiences.
This I do know.
NO ONE KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW WILL BRING, OR THE NEXT DAY, OR THE NEXT MONTH. IT IS NONE OF OUR BUSINESS. ONLY GOD KNOWS.
WE CANNOT PREDICT THE FUTURE
ALL WE KNOW IS THE NOW.
Yet I can say that mom is going to be fine.
My biggest problem is that I can't be there for noon each day. I would burn out within a week. It is the traveling. 3 hours each way.
This is why it is so important for me to be living in White Rock.
Please pray for this to happen. It is for my mother's sake. I am there at 2 but I really need to be there at noon each day.
If you can help in anyway, drop me a line. Mom really needs for me to be there at noon each day. To get here better. And the only way I can do that is to be living out there. .
GOD bless and good night.
Kristopher Schmuland
