Hello again
It has now been a week since mom has eaten anything. Ok tomorrow will be a week. Yet on the Sunday mom did eat, for me. You see mom will eat and swallow for me. But not them. I wonder why this is. Interesting don't you think.
Speaking with the doctor, he is telling me not to feed her, as she has problems swallowing. And again, I tell him she ate yesterday, so what is the problem.
Well I fed her five spoons full of smoothie yesterday and she swallowed it. A little difficult but she did it anyways.
This is what I have explained to the staff. All they do is tell me it is that time, she is to week to eat and swallow. And the reason is, SHE IS NOT BEING FED.!
I will not allow mom to starve to death. I know what it is like to go without any food for a week or more. They don't understand this. The one nurse said to me, when I told her that mom is not going to starve to death, that I know what it is like to not eat for a week, because I have gone that long and longer without having anything to eat. She tells me that she understands.
BS. She makes over 30 hr. How on earth can she understand this. I hate there attitude on this. They will sooner have someone die, than to try to get them healthy.
I have repeated over and over again. That this is your opinion, and that is it. I understand what you are saying. Now understand me. I am not going to let my mother starve to death and there is only one who makes the decision on who dies or when it is their turn. And that is GOD. Now when GOD tells me it is mom' time, than that I will listen too. Not the nurses or doctors. ONLY GOD.
Over all mom is looking better. Brighter and more awake. We had a few good conversations today I know mom is hungry. So tomorrow I will start to give her smoothie. They tell me mom is low on potassium, well banana`s have lots of potassium and that is what her smoothie`s are made of. Strawberry, banana``s and yogurt. That is all that is in them.
I am getting there at 3 and not leaving until 8:30 or so. Well to catch the 9:00 pm bus. I just sit with mom, talk to her, we listen to music. And watch a little TV. When she wants too.
Mom no longer needs the oxygen all the time. Her breathing is fine now.
Now I want to point out a pattern, a pattern that exists in all nursing homes. Give it a few more days before you feed her. Than it is give it another few more days. At this point they say, she is to weak to eat.. It is time for her to die.
I write this to warn everyone of this pattern. One has to say enough is enough. Time to take matters back into one`s own hands.
Again. I can get mom to eat. But they don`t seem to be able to do this. Or is it, they don`t want to or just don`t bother.
It is not just where mom is. It is rampant. Remember, mom ate last Sunday and then Monday they tell me not to feed her, as she has problems swallowing. She didn`t have any problems swallowing on Sunday. Ok a little, but I was still able to feed her. Period!
Not much to say. I just get up and leave, sit with mom, holding her hand the entire time. And leave later than normal. I just sit there holding her hand and the only time I get up is to go to the washroom.
I am washing her daily, to make her feel better.
I don`t have anyone to cook for, so I am finding that I am not cooking for myself. Crackers, cheese, bread, butter. This is what I have been living on. What is in the freezer is the Christmas dinner I was going to cook for mom. And will once she is back on solid foods. Since it has been a week, it will take a little while to get her eating properly again.
So I have to say good night. I am very tired. I am not sleeping much. I am smoking way more than usual and not liking it.
OK than
GOD bless you and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
