Hello again
I want to say this first. I do not like Christmas. I have not had a Christmas that I have liked for many years. I do Christmas for mom. If she is happy on Christmas Day than I am happy. Other than that, I come back to a empty, lonely place. A place that I don't want to be............. A place that is taking away so much time that I could spend with mom. I don't want to be here, at all. I only want to live in White Rock close to mom. So I could of had her over for an actual Christmas Dinner.
But no, that is not and has not happened in, well, ever. It is such a shame. I have come to realize I am a very good person. I may of had and still have problems. But I am a very good person. I don't know of anyone who does what I do for mom, nor does any of the staff at Al Hogg. 1 percent of the population.
I just don't like Christmas. I thought it would be different this year.
I am still very disgusted by what my sister's did. Taking away the picture of mom's husband, their father and mine.
It is a good thing that my mind told me to take a photo of the picture. I enlarged it and took it to the library to have it printed. Just a few problems. It has a snow flake in it.... I posted the pic. I will have to take it to London Drugs and have them remove the snow flake and make it as close to the original as possible. I just have to come up with the $50.00 to do this. My pockets are empty............................ Broke, broke and broke.
But I brought the print and mom just smiled. It is on her wall now. So she can look at it again.
You know folks, my sister's have never even brought mom a poinsettia or any flowers. Not a piece of fruit or anything. But they sure know how to take. That is there middle names. TAKERS.
Mom has not been doing well with her eating and swallowing. I have only been able to get her to eat 15 bites each night. And those are very small bites. Each bite takes mom, at least 10 minutes to swallow. That is with my rubbing her neck, coaching her to swallow, giving her something to drink with each bite. but at least mom is eating something.
I am going to be taking her to the emergency room, very soon if this does not clear up. Mom has not even been eating her chocolate. And that she loves.
If the hospital can't find out what is wrong with mom, this might be her last Christmas with us. She needs to eat more than what she is eating.. This can't go on like this without something seriously going on.
I need your help to make this Christmas the best Christmas possible. If this is gong to be her last Christmas. I need your help.
I have decorated her room, At least I was able to do this for her. I won't be able to get mom a Poinsettia or even Christmas gifts. I needed to use the funds I had for her gifts on a blender and her spa treatment products. Since my sister's decided that mom doesn't need them anymore. Or anything. I was going to get a pair of boots. Since everything I have has holes in the bottom of the boot or in the side. Not waterproof. Wet feet is what I have been experiencing as of late.
This is the only place I am complaining about this. No one else knows this. Why tell them, nobody gives a rats ass about this.
I am only concerned with mom. That is why I gave up that idea. Mom's spa treatment is more important. And having a blender for her smoothie's is also very important. Yes she is still drinking them. THANK GOD for that.
All I want for Christmas is to live close by mom. I now need to do this even more. So I can be there, if something happens.
I do hope this is not the case.
I am about to have a breakdown, so I need to go now.
Please pray and help if you can. Again I need to make this Christmas the best it can be. Just in case.
GOD bless and good night.
Kristopher Schmuland
I do beg of you for your help.
