Hello again
So Sunday it is. What a day, the wind blowing gently. the sun shinning, but not so hot. All around a nice day. It is, however expected to get up to 38 in the next week or two. TO HOT!
I brought mom a nice chicken dinner with the extra`s, which I made. Mom enjoyed it. But it took her a little longer to chew her food. So by the time we were almost finished dinner the roommate was back. I never realized it, but mom did. The expression on her face changed. An expression of being interrupted, again..
I know mom and she just likes to have dinner in peace. Without the TV being so loud it is disturbing to others. Mom`s TV is not that loud. Neither of us need it that loud. So as soon as the roommate comes in, mom`s mood changes.
Mom is irritated. The peace she likes is now ruined.
I do understand it is the roommates room as well. But having to have the TV up that loud all the time. Every time I ask if I can lower the volume, it is up past 60. Her TV goes up to volume level 100
Mom`s TV is at volume level 24 and that is to loud.
On to something different. OK not that much different.
It was then just the usual.
I got mom ready for bed, She was then put into bed.
I went and washed the dishes
I came back and gave mom her nightly spa treatment.
This was done early and I just held her hand for a while
Tonight mom was singing along with the songs and me. I tried to dance with her a bit. She likes that.
Mom does look at me a little weird though. From all of my goofing off. And singing to her. The way that I do. Having fun.
Yes I try to make her laugh as much as possible. If that means singing and dancing. Goofing around. Then so be it. As long as it makes her smile and laugh.
That is all that matters.
The only thing I have to say about myself. Is nothing has changed. I still have what I have and I am in still the same amount of pain. I am forgetting to eat. I had someone who would remind me, but that is that. No more.
So I am still doing what it is I need to do. But failing at most of my attempts.
I have to stop this for now.
For the last 3 nights I have woken up at 4 am and could not fall back to sleep. I have just laid there. Trying to sleep.
GOD bless and good night. I ask that you continue to pray for mom and I and send us your support. What ever that means to you.
Kristopher Schmuland
