Hello again
It has been a few days since I last wrote. But I have been busy getting mom's Christmas together. Wrapping presents, and last night cooking her the traditional Christmas dinner. Except it wasn't a Turkey it was a Cornish Game Hen. Done exactly the way a Turkey would be done.
So I have been up very late. The other night, wrapping mom's gifts, I was up until 4 AM, than last night it was 3 AM and then I am up at 9 AM. I left my house today at noon, so I could get out their early.
I arrived at 3 PM. The roads were dead, hardly anyone on the buses.
It is not just the staying up late, I have been carrying extra things the last few days, I mean the last month. The Christmas tree, all the ornaments, and the decorations to go with everything. To make mom's room looking very much in the Christmas spirit.
I do this to make mom feel it is a little bit like home. To make sure she is loved. This is part of what I do. Bring a little bit of home into her life, her room, her dinner.
Well the first thing I needed to do was get mom her drinks, and a little bit to eat. Then we opened her presents. I got mom all the presents I could afford. And I bought allot of things on sale so I was able to get a few more gifts for her. Which was great. Mom loved everyone of them. I saw a tear in her eye. She knows I love her and will do everything I can for her. Everything. I wrapped them nicely.
I cleaned up all of the boxes and wrapping paper. And then it was off to have dinner. There was a nice table cloth left over in the family room, and nobody was going to be using it tonight. So this was our place for dinner.
I had to go off to warm everything up. This took a while. I didn't like leaving mom alone, so I was back and forth with her. As long as I touched base with her, kissed her hand. I thing she was okay with this. I hope so. I really do hate leaving mom alone while I am their. I try not to do this. But I do need to warm up her dinners.
This is my guilt for the night. Having to leave her alone while I warmed up her dinner. I guess I could of brought her with me, while I did this. But mom, with her legs extended out, takes up allot of space. And it is fairly crowded where the microwave is. The rec person moved it their, A completely stupid idea. It was in the family room and there was no problem with this. Except it bothered the rec person. Whom I cannot stand. She exudes a very scattered and negative vibe. I can feel it when she is within 10 meters of me. And it is not a very good feeling.
I do everything I can to ignore her and keep her away from me. I do not and will talk to her. She is dirty and leaves dirty dishes around for day on end.
Anyways. I finished warming up her dinner and mom ate and ate. Mom ate just about all of her dinner, plus dessert. I just love this . Each holiday I do this for her.
I say this to anyone. The best Christmas present I get each year and for the past decade. Is to make my mother's Christmas the best it can be. To make each and every holiday special. This makes my heart thump and brings a tear to my eye each time I think about her.
I am so happy mom had a good time tonight. Enjoyed herself. Loved the company. Mom is stuck with just me, so I make our time together a special as possible.
I got her ready for bed, put her into bed and then gave her the nightly spa treatment. And since I had nothing to do tonight, I didn't have to wrap anything, make a huge meal or anything like that. I stayed longer than I usually do. I left at 8:30. I arrived home a little later than normal. But that is okay with me.
I just have to make something to eat now. My tooth is getting better and I have been able to eat a little more solid foods. This I am enjoying.
I wrote, I am done, I just need to eat something and relax. Maybe, just maybe I will be able to sleep better tonight. And maybe earlier.
I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and I hope you enjoyed this special day.That our Lord and savior was born. That you were able to have your families together.
This is my Christmas. I spent the day with mom and now I am alone again. I really am use to it. There was my negative. I am always alone so it is no big deal anymore. I have no family, except for my mother. And I have no friends, which I am sure might be my fault. I am busy traveling to and from seeing my mother. I don't have time to keep friends or make new ones. I am sorry for this. But I am unwilling to stop doing what I do for my mother. No matter what. Even if this means being alone all the time.
Again Merry Christmas
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
