Hello again
People say I am a good person. I don't see it. Yes I take care of my mother. This doesn't necessarily make me a good person. OK I do believe I am somewhat good. Well, I am a good person.
I do have my moments. Where I am upset and don't give a crap what other's think of me. Actually, I don't care what other's think of me. And that is the truth.
I say I am a nobody and that is what I am, a nobody. Yet I am but a humble servant who is just doing the right thing by his mother. I am a servant of my GOD. Who says to honor your mother and father. To love and cherish my time with my mother. To do my GOD's work.
Yes I ask for help. This is so I can continue my work. Not to just help mom, but to be an example to other's. That these are our parents and they deserve the utmost respect. They deserve for us to be there for them. But I never get any help from anyone.
I do not blame my sisters for anything. This is their choice, not mine.
I am only doing what it is that I am called to do.... Take care of mom. I feel this deep within my soul, that this is what I am to do at this point in my life.
I don't complain about it. I like what I am doing. At least someone wants me around.
Other's say I am a good son. I am only as good as my mother raised me to be. I believe in love, caring, compassion and patience.
There are individuals who don't like me. OK I say. I don't expect everyone to like me. Haters hate, no matter what one does.
It doesn't matter to me if anyone reads this Blog. Hell, I am surprised that this many people have actually read it. But I do appreciate everyone who has been reading my Blog. I would continue to write this Blog if nobody was reading it.
But again, I do very much appreciate all of you, form all over the world, who are reading it.
I just want to be living in White Rock so I can do even more for mom. I am so sick of living where I am at. I can only pay so much for rent. No one seems to understand this. Anything more and I don't eat at all. I only eat once a day as it is. I am use to it, and so is my body.
I have been putting up flyer's around White Rock and nothing. Maybe I need to be standing on the corner with a big sign or something like that.
Another day of extreme pain. There is a lump on my elbow that is getting bigger and the shaking of my right arm is getting worse.
OK I am done now.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
