Hello again
First off I am terrible at spelling. Before spell check. I would always carry a dictionary around with me. And to my surprise. OK, not really. I knew it was spelled wrong.
But I do apologize for spelling quiet wrong all this time. I have been spelling it quite. It was today that it came to me the correct spelling.
So please except my apologies for the huge error.
Today, was a good day for mom. Very hungry and we finished diner early. Apparently. I brought her chicken and rice. Mom really liked it. And of course she ate some of the served dinner.
We got to her room and I quickly change her. Then back to the book. We both are really getting excited about what is going on.
I have the movie, but I won't watch it until we finish the book. And we will watch it together.
And finishing dinner early, we were done everything else early. So after mom was put to bed. She was ready to sleep. Of course I stood there and held her hand. If I let go, mom will reach her hand out to find mine.
I find this so fascinating. That she is so comfortable holding my hand, she will automatically close her eye's. Even while we are eating dinner. I let go, her eye's open. I grab her hand and her eye's close.
I am not use to someone being that secure, knowing that I am there and everything is OK. Just not use to this.
I guess it revolves around my not liking to be touched. This does make for a lonely existence though. Really, I do not like to be touched. At all. By anyone. I just make an exception for mom. And sometimes, this is even hard for me. To much!. But I won't stop.
I don't and won't shack someone's hand. Do not hug me. If the bus is to crowded, I will get off and catch another one. If someone is sitting to close to me, I will get up and stand.
Yes this is my serious problem. Along with the injuries I have suffered threw car accidents over the years and the injuries I am suffering with now, because of the bus accident.
And I am getting very lonely.
Again tonight I stayed latter. Mom has been going to sleep earlier and I have been staying latter.
OK, midnight. I need to get going. I am tired from being up late writing. It takes longer only using one hand to type. As mentioned , if I have the keyboard right up against me, I can use both hands. But need to take breaks every few minutes.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
