I am very tired this evening, but I need to do my laundry. I have been doing mom's laundry, only to forget to do my own.
I fell asleep on top of the bed last night, to wake up at 6 am, cold and very tired. The laptop repeating, whatever it was I started to watch. I have no idea. I just reached over and turned the computer off. And, well, the rest of my sleep was very restless. I only ended up getting a few hours of good sleep. I had to get up earlier than normal. Had things to do.
The only things I wish for is to be living in White Rock, closer to mom, so I can be their more often for her and get things done quicker.
And I can't even get this done. This is causing me to even be more depressed
Last night I found a letter that I wrote and delivered to the previous manager, complaining about the roommate. In 2012. That is how little this place cares about what the children or the loved one's of the residents, think or ask to happen. Absolutely nothing.
So, anyways, mom was exceedingly happy to see me today. Reaching out her hand, immediately, upon seeing me. To grab and hold on tight. Closing her eye's and completely relaxing. I brought her a nice dinner,which she ate and then some.
Again, as soon as mom hit the pillow, she was almost fast asleep. Wanting, but not wanting her spa treatment. And afterwards she was off into slumber-land. I had to wake her up so she could take her nightly medicine and have something to drink before I left.
I didn't leave right away. And when I did leave, mom was fast asleep.
I do feel guilty that I can't stay longer. And it bothered me all the way home. As it usually does.
I have nothing, so I want to do as much as I can for her.
Bed time, right after the laundry finishes
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
