Hello again
So it is getting closer, Christmas I mean, and mom's room is decorated. I am now worried about getting her Christmas presents. I know I won't have anything under the tree. Because I have no tree.
Next week in mom's Christmas dinner at the home. Really, the 19 th of December. I will be making mom something nice for the actual Christmas dinner. As mentioned a Cornish Hen. With the fixings.
I got to White Rock and picked up a few things for mom's dinner tomorrow, then I started to walk towards the shop where I was going to get mom a beef rap. I saw the bus and ran for it. It wasn't until I was at the home that I realized that I forgot mom's dinner, so I stayed on the bus and went back uptown. I was able to back in time for her dinner.
I wanted to wash her hair, but didn't have the time and when dinner was over, mom was to tired for me to wash her hair. So I will get their early tomorrow and do this for her.
Mom is alright. she is doing well. Her leg rests will be their tomorrow/today. Which will be great for her. Mom's legs will finally be supported.
If you want to get something done, you have to do it yourself.
Mom was getting the cherry tomatoes by herself this evening. I encourage her to do things for herself.
What can I say. I am freaked out about Christmas. It is freezing outside and I don't even have a warm enough jacket. Piss me off.
My hearing is worse off, I am in constant pain. Yet nothing.
I met someone, from another floor today, that just turned 100. and he has his wits about him. I have know him for awhile now.
I feel at times mom deserves more than I can and have been able to give her. I do my best and sometimes I feel it is not good enough.
I know mom loves me and what I do for her. And I love helping mom at every moment.
It can be difficult when one is in pain all the time. But I do my best
I need to go now.
I am very tired. As last night I was in a very bad mood, and I don't even know why. The day went well. Maybe I am even more tired of living here, than I realized. Especially I saw a place and it was only $75.00 out of my price range. Piss me off.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher W. A. Schmuland
