Hello again
So I would say that 95% of the population could not do what I do for my mother. Or they are just to selfesh to do so. Or to greedy to give up everything to take care of someone and whatever else needs to be done to make sure their life is full or respect and dignity.
I am truly blessed.
I am broke, but without power is a different story. I is a wise man who knows when to speak and when to listen and keep notes. I am that wise person.
There is only two, OK now three individuals where mom is that I don't respect. One being the LPN Joanne and the other being Sherry. Plus let us not forget about the care aid who made this all possible. That I can no longer put mom to bed.
Otherwise, I am extremely polite and very well liked among all of the staff. I am respectful to all the residents and the staff a like.
I am their every single day, without fail. And I always have a smile on my face. Am friendly to all. I never show my mother that I am suffering from extreme depression right now. I won't! I cannot have mom being worried. I am in serious pain, not just physical pain, but emotional pain as well.
It takes it's toll on me, seeing my mother go through this. Knowing that it is only going to get worse. Knowing that mom is very well aware of her circumstances.
It is a shame that I receive comments from only the one's who don't have the fortitude to even begin to do what I do. I am referred to as an asshole, narcissistic asshole, looser, bum etc..... Instead of negative comments why don't you help. Instead of being without, why don't you help me and therefore know that you have done something that JESUS would be proud of.
I well up with tears, knowing that I have watched my mother decline over the years from this disease. I well up with tears that I have the privilege to wash her feet. As JESUS did with his disciples.It is a great honor to be their for my mother all the time. To have her know that someone is their to care for her, to care about her.
Is not Love the most important aspect of life. To give of one's self freely, without reservations, without wanting anything in return. I want nothing from my mother. I only want to give to her. To do for her, whatever I can.
Yes I would like things, but not allot. I even live without a TV or stereo. Now I live without groceries, or being able to make my mother dinners. Yes I would like a 27" monitor and a USB cable adapter. I don't need anything else, nor do I want everything else.
I have a bedroom suite, a chair and end table. I don't have pots and pans, nor plates or cutlery. But I have mostly everything else for kitchen needs.
This is all I need for a place on my own.
I am short a few hundred dollars a month for most places. And what I find, their are rules that are imposed. As in the place I called today. You can't have people over. It was for a shared accommodations,thought. Or we don`t want someone who is going to be home all the time. What they are saying is they won`t rent to someone on disability or welfare.
I am broke, and have to live in a situation where I can no longer even put any groceries in the fridge, without fear of them being gone, by the time I wake up in the morning or when I get home at night.
I cannot even buy groceries to make my mother dinners, without fear that everything I make or purchased will be taken by this roommate. I tell the landlord and he tells me that he didn't do this. I tell him he admitted it to me.
The landlord tells me that he will get me a small fridge, but where is it. My only recourse is to file a complaint with the Residential Tenancy branch. Don't I already have enough to do, as it is.
Did not your parents raise you. Should we not show them the same respect they showed us.
GOD bless and goodnight.
Kris Schmuland
Last night mom did not have to wait any length of time before she was put to bed. Tonight it was 1/2 hour.
