Hello again
I guess I did not write about my mother's birthday. Excuse me for this.
So Friday, was mom's birthday My sisters were their that day. They brought her cards and I guess some gifts. There is a new pair of slippers and body lotions. ( Bio therme is the only lotion I will use on mom) but I am glad they came to see her, on the day of her birthday.
Now I made mom a seafood and chicken cannelloni, this huge salad with everything in it, spinach based.with bean sprouts, red, yellow and orange peppers. cucumber, two different types of onions, two different types of mushrooms. When served it is served with an avocado and cheese.
I brought her a bouquet of flowers. Several articles of clothing. I got her a small cheese cake, and put a candle on it. This is the part that was sad. When I lit the candle and asked mom to blow it out. I noticed mom looking at it. Trying to figure out how to do this. She had forgotten. But I just stood beside her and said to her "lets do this together" and we did.
Mom ate most of her dinner and then off to her spa treatment.
I am trying to get her a micro stereo system, found one, but it is not on sale anymore. Even though I tried to purchase it before mom's birthday, but couldn't get any help from the staff. Went into the store four times and did not get help. Will find one.
Since then mom has been overly tired. Not getting the proper sleep she needs. She keeps getting awaken by her roommate.
But I am doing something about this
Now tonight mom was not feeling good about things. She was upset about my sisters, not doing more for her. She was feeling un loved by them. I don't blame her.
I had made a lemon pie for her. Yes I made it. and she had a piece, but not much of her dinner. I was and am worried. I sat with her while she fell asleep. This is the time when I really get worried. Mom was not happy and couldn't fall asleep. Even though she was extremely tired. She just starred at the wall.
I need to move to White Rock and now, not latter. I need to be 5, 10 minutes away, maximum. I need GOD to help me out here. I can't wait any longer. Mom needs me to be their for her as much as possible. I need to do things with her. Even if it is just sitting and reading to her. Telling her stories. Anything and everything. Someone, tonight, said to me that I am doing enough. No, I am not. I need to do allot more. Mom deserves it.
This is very emotional for me. I was tearing up on the bus, on the skytrain and walking home. I am tearing up now. I feel that I am useless and not a good son.
Mom is sad and when mom is sad I am sad.
I need to go now, as I am starting to really become emotional.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
