Hello again
So I was writing about individuals not being able to do the job of caregiver. Don't get me wrong, it is not something that everyone can handle. I am not putting down my sisters in anyway.
I get depressed, I cry, I feel worthless for not being able to do more for mom. I go without ( gladly) I spend many hours traveling. Yet it is all worth every minute of the time spent with mom. I know I can handle every bit of it.
Today mom was not so tired. She ate a little bit more tonight. She just loves Papaya. I also brought her prawns in a pepper butter sauce. Again I am not a fan of prawns. These are for mom and mom only. I don't have anything for dinner. It is all OK though. What I get for mom is strictly for mom and is not mine to use etc...
As I have said I, for the last several days I have been staying and holding mom's hand while she falls asleep. When I do leave, mom is sound asleep. But tonight they did not give mom her nightly medication before I left. This is what I try to make sure mom gets before I leave for the night. This way after I finish her spa treatment I just want mom to relax and just drift off to sleep and get as much rest as she can before she is awaken in the middle of the night.
It is moms Birthday, as mentioned, Friday. And I am getting nervous. OK maybe not nervous, I just want it to be a great day for her. I will do what I can for her.
I need to print out the letters I have for the manager of the Al Hogg pavilion. Concerning the nurse and moving the roommate. I asked mom tonight if she liked her roommate and she said clearly, NO! I am not a fan of hers either. Don't get me wrong. She is a nice enough lady. But not to be a roommate for mom. It is affecting mom's health and I won't stand for this.
I have been procrastinating about these letter's. As the place keeps making threats against me. That they will stop me from seeing mom. But when I thinks about it. Has anything stopped me before. No, I never backed down before and won't do it now. If they try to stop me from seeing mom. I go start to the RCMP and have them charged with abuse. Mom needs me to be their.
Or something like that. But I am sure it won't come to this. They know I write this, and write everything down that happens.
Anyway, I am delirious right now. My knee's are killing me. So I need to take something for the pain and go to bed.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
