Hello again
It is unbelievable that people still don't get what I am doing. I am serving my mother and it is not anyone who I care if they are watching me. There is only one who matters that is watching me. And that is GOD.
I don't do anything I do for anyone, not for me, not for you. But only for my mother. It is her that needs me to be their for her.
It is faith that I am doing the right thing keeps me going day in and day out. I shall not wavier with my dedication to my mother. I do not doubt what I do, at all and anytime.
It is only once in someones life they get to do for another.To be their for them.
I do not know how long mom has left. But it is OK, whatever time she has left will be made to be the best time I can possibly give to her. Do everything I can, get her out to as many places I can take her. To see as much as possible. The beach, the city, all her friends. Just a drive around the lower mainland or wherever.
Anything and everything for mom should be done to make whatever time she has left enjoyable.
It is GOD who keeps me going day in and day out.
Yes, sometimes I don't even know if I will eat tomorrow. But something happens and I do. Ok there are times when I go for a few weeks without eating. But I am still alive.
Yes my clothing is 4 sizes to big now, that I have lost all this weight. But I mange. And my cable and phone have been disconnected. Oh well, what can I do. Oh yea, pay the bill.
But wait, I have no money to do this. I guess I over extended myself or I should not of even had cable or a phone if I could not afford them.
I ask for help, but nothing is given. I should only be asking GOD for help. As I have a hard time believing that people will assist me. Oh wait, I have asked and asked and I have not received any help from anyone.
It would be nice to speak with someone about what is going on or how I am doing. This would be nice once in a while. But doesn't happen. So I place my care in GOD's hands.
This is why I have a hard time trusting people.
I am Christian and it is a true Christian that give of themselves without asking for anything in return. Gives freely to those in need
I guess I have not met any true Christians yet. But I believe that I will and soon.
I have started a campaign to get mom a wheelchair equipped van and insurance for said van. This is needed to get mom out and about.
indiegogo.com/momsbucketlist
Yet so far nothing. No funding. This is for mom. Me moving to White Rock is for mom. I will not stop looking after mom, I will be there to the end.
I will continue to write my feeling and write about the situation
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
