Hello again
I left early today, because it is Canada Day, 145 years old we are. And I thought that the bus would be packed and the traffic would be bad. It was! It took 15 minutes longer to get down town. It was OK, as I arrived in White Rock one half hour early.
So when I arrived at the home, mom was hungry. I had a Papaya, gold Kiwi, and avocado and an Asian Pear. Plus some asiago cheese and extra old white cheddar. Yes, I had funds to purchase things for mom. But not for me.
Mom was hungry, so I cut up the fruit and cheese and mom was extremely happy. It was a nice lite dinner. Very healthy. She ate everything, all the fruit and allot of the cheese. Which is good. Oh yea I also had a protein bar, which mom ate half of it.
Then they served her dinner. OK, while she was eating the fruit. She wanted to see what was served. I opened the lid and the look on mom's face. Went from anticipation, to the complete opposite. To complete disappointment. It was so funny, I couldn't help myself but to laugh out loud. Mom laughed as well.
But she was already full, anyways. I gave her the chocolate she loves. Lindor Truffles. Time was at hand for the spa treatment. I did the dishes and got her changed into her night gown. Put her to bed. Using the lift. And first brushed her teeth. Using this tooth brush that is garbage. I needed to get mom a new brush, and went cheap. An electric one, but inexpensive. And I have to bang the tooth brush just to get it going. It never pays to go cheap. Get something good the first time and it will last. Now, I hope I have the receipt, to get it replaced.
I wash her face and neck. Put on Carmax lip balm, then a moisturising lotion and then under eye cream. I wash her lower legs and put lotion on this, separate lotion and a spray. Do her arms and hands. Separate lotions for each of these. We talk and laugh. I am clumsy, so through out dinner and afterwards, I never got anything on mom, but on myself. She finds this extremely funny. So do I. Their could be something on the other side of the table and I will get some of it on me. She knows this and laughs at me. It is OK, as I laugh at myself. ( I just washed the pants and shirt by hand, when I got home.)
They finally came in and changed her, depends, which is when I usually go to the washroom myself and make hot water for a tea on the way home.
I was going to go downtown afterwards and film the fireworks. But their was over 400,000 people in Vancouver tonight. Which would of made it crazy to get back, by transit So I just came home. To, well not my place anymore. Or a place I have not paid rent for.
Now a little about my huge problem.
So I don't know if it was GOD who said that if it is extremely difficult and things aren't working out smoothly, than it is not of HIM. Or, maybe, it is not suppose to be.
It is the first of the month and I should be living in White Rock. I should of been able to stay latter and stay until mom fell asleep. But I needed to get back to Coquitlam. Or go to the new place and sleep on the floor, with nothing else.
I have paid the rent for the place out their. But since I decided to move to this place everything has been difficult. Promises were made and not kept/fell through. I now am in a place that I haven't paid rent for.
But because of everything that has happened, I don't want to live in that place anymore. It has just been to difficult to get things together for this place. Don't get me wrong, the guy is nice, that owns the place. But it has nothing to do with him.
It is that, to much crap has happened in the last two weeks, it is not funny. I have been praying and praying, and nothing has happened. I just don't and won't feel comfortable their. It is that simple. Nothing more and nothing less.
I just have this feeling. But the problem is that unless I move their, I am out over $700.00 dollars, for the months rent and damage deposit and I don't have the rent to pay for the place I am at now. I need, $565.00 just to stay here. I don't even have one dollar to my name.
No eating for me tonight, this is OK. As I am not even hungry as of late. No appetite. Trust me, if it was just me, I would be gone. I probably would of dusted myself off by now. Mom keeps me here.
So I can't move into an empty place. I wouldn't survive with nothing. Oh yea I can do laundry, but that would be it.
So what do I do
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Yea keep asking and pressing the PGT to live up to it's promisses
