Hello again
I have just been thinking about the fact no one went to see mom over Christmas. Well I counted the people around here and there are 29 people who are actually family and only my sister and her two grandchildren went to see mom.
Mom has been asking me why, why wouldn't they come. While holding my hand extremely tight.
Now I made a promise to mom again that I would be their for her all the time and never miss a day, ever.
Now the problem is this. The PGT has threatened to stop helping me with bus fare and funds for her drinks and snacks. I wrote them again tonight explaining about Christmas and no answer.
The first is just a few days away and mom needs me to be their all the time. And the truth is I need to be their, as well. I look forward to visiting mom everyday. I am starting to not like this 3 hour their and 3 hour back thing. I wish I was closer so I can actually spend more time with her. And be able to take her out during the day.
And looking into mom's eye's is heart breaking. I am human and do have feelings. I cried about this tonight, on the bus, on my way to the bus and on my way home. Well and now.
It is hard to see mom this way. And it is hard to see that no one cares enough to even help out a little. Or for my family not to care at all. And for everyone else to even see that this is the most important thing I am doing in my life. That nothing I ever do will compare to this. I am so very blessed to have this opportunity to be here for my mother. I have been given an opportunity to give to someone.
I have been given a rare once in a life time opportunity in my worthless life.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
