Hello again
So the lady is home and the other is moving back. Now I am back to the BS. Already the place is a mess and it has only been 5 hours since they have been back. Great. NOT.
I will not be cleaning up after anyone.
Well I was speaking with the funeral director to put on a service for mom. It is expensive. But if I do allot myself, it will be less expensive.
The catering is what is the most expensive. Almost $400 just for the catering alone. So I think I will just do this myself. It will then only cost me about $450 for the service, provided I get my own pastor. Which I think I can. And do the catering myself. Plus the memorial table and slide show. Yes the flowers are going to be a huge cost. So I think I might ask my cousin if he will donate flowers for the service. Maybe, who knows.
I have so much stress at the moment. Not just with this, but with everything. I have allot to do over the next month. Many appointments and packing to move. Then the move it's self. I still have to go back and get the landlord to re-do the tenancy agreement. It is not right according to.............
Speaking with the funeral director, she gave me a card that has the number of free counseling services. Counseling for a year, 1 hours a day. Paid for by the funeral home. This is great because the grief counseling I am currently going to, runs out in two more appointments.
I am not well............................
I am not sure if I can make it through all of this. The diabetes is killing me. The stress from living here is great. It was fine for a week, while the lady was in the hospital. By myself and the place was clean. Not anymore.
I do need help with allot of things. I have to right a resume. NOW. And I have no one. I am paying the price for being a loner.
Anyways I can't write anymore tonight. Not thinking straight. Feeling very bad and depressed. Some friends want me to go to the PNE ( An annual exhibition that takes place here in Vancouver, the last two weeks of August) I have so much to do, I need the time to get things done. Also I need to leave my home at 7 am to get there by 10 am. Also I have an appointment in Vancouver tomorrow afternoon with my counselor. I will still see her.
GOD bless and goodnight
Kris Schmuland
