Hello again
Well mom is getting back to normal with her eating and swallowing This is great news. But she is stiff. The Lorazapam helped her with the stiffness, but it made her to tired. I am glad that I put a stop to that.
Anyways, I am finding it more and more difficult to leave at night. I just want to stay and hold mom's hand until she is completely asleep. Tonight, I thought she was asleep, I moved my hand to start to pack up and out reached mom's hand to grab for mine. So sweet. I grabbed her hand again and said to her I need to pack up. Being asleep and knowing I let go of her hand.
It is just to much for me to know I can't stay and I want too. Someone emailed me with a place but it was fake. They did get my email address though. I usually use a different email address for things like this. I used my phone, doesn't have this alias.
Now mom did eat well and I put the music on for her. Mom really was enjoying it. The care aid even noticed mom moving to the music. I was singing away to her. Dancing with her. She just completely relaxed.
I sang our good night song to her and finished packing. Then left. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE IN COQUITLAM ANY MORE. I NEED TO BE OUT IN WHITE ROCK.
It is a short blog tonight. I have things to write about the PGT but not tonight. I am calm now and don't want to get myself all pissed off.
So I need to go
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
