Hello again
Well I was late again today. I am just going to have to start leaving earlier. I need to be out there by 4 so I can get a few things done and then get to mom's by 4:30. Who am I kidding, I need to be out there by 3:30
When I arrived mom was a little agitated. I do understand, I have been late for a few days now, and mom expects me to be there at a certain time. She waits for me and knows what time I arrive. She likes it when I get there early, so we have time together before dinner. And I am not rushing around trying to get things ready. It also gives her more time to just relax and eat. Without feeling rushed. That is the last thing I want mom to feel. I just need mom to be relaxed at dinner so she can chew her food completely and swallow properly.
We do need to be finished by 6:30 that includes me changing her into her nightgown and putting away her clean clothing. And she just wants to relax and hold my hand while she listens to some music before the girl comes in and puts her to bed. Just relax and get comfortable and ready. She loves thins.
I am good with this. So I say again, I will be arriving early from now on.
Tomorrow I need to be out there early, as I need to get an x - ray done on my right ankle. I has been extremely sore for months and by the time the end of the day is here, I can barely walk on it. As it is now. Just killer pain. Even taking a muscle relaxer. This pain wakes me up at night.
So I give mom her nightly spa treatment and hold her hand for a bit. Didn't do much singing this evening. To late getting there and then rushed.
As I am now. I am tired and in pain. I am depressed and upset. I want to be living out there, but nothing so far. I am just frustrated at not finding a place.
At the end of this month it will be 4 years that I have been traveling out to White Rock each and everyday. And I have been looking ever since mom moved there. Sure at first I had unrealistic expectations. But that has changed.
I have to sign off for the night
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
