Hello again
I am going to start with mom. Mom was fine today. The one odd thing is she didn't go down to get her hair done. Strange I say. Strange.
Mom's left eye was a mess, full of sleet. It was pointed out to me. I cleaned her eye right away.
Mother's day. I brought her a bunch of nice flowers, a card and I made mom a nice dinner. Mom loved the flowers, I put them on her lap and she grabbed hold of them. When I went to move them for dinner, she complained. So I left them right there on her lap.
Today, I just picked her up a burger and onion rings. From the place she really enjoys. She didn't even want the served dinner.
I need a new mouse. It is pissing me off.
We got dinner done slowly tonight. Mom took her time, and that is okay with me. Then I changed her for bed. I picked up the adapted clothing today. And everything was the way I wanted it to be. So now I will go through the rest of mom's clothing to see what I will bring. Some of her pants are to old to adapt, Might as well just by her new pants. But mom has allot of shirts that can be adapted now.
The care aid came in very late. Didn't even have a reason for it. And she is not even speaking with me anymore. Must be that nurse who reported to the PGT that I feed her to much. And if you are reading this. Your life is boring and you have nothing better to do. LOOSER! That is exactly what I think of her. I knew what she was like the moment I met her. Or better yet. She has a big mouth.
Now the care aid. This women has a problem with me being in the room while she puts mom to bed. So tomorrow night I am going to stay in the room. And if she has a problem with this. I will just ask her what is she trying to hide. That she doesn`t want me in the room.
One other problem I am seriously having is mom is sitting in her dirty diapers for to long and this is going to change.
After I gave mom her nightly spa treatment. She was ready for sleep. So I stood there beside her and held her hand, sang our good night song and let her fall asleep,with that beautiful smile on her face.
Now I am not ready to have Parkinson`t disease, but since I do I am going to start to live my life differently again. I change because of helping and watching my father die and now my mother with her strokes. There is a frailty to life. I have lived it for over a decade now. It makes one see the world in a different light. To stop and smell the roses if I may use this trite cliché.
Doing things that one was afraid of doing before. I am not talking about jumping out of an airplane or tying rubber bands on my legs and jumping off a cliff. I am talking about doing the things that one puts off. Writing that letter. Just because, or just to see. Taking a stand. Even more than I do now.
I use to just do. But that person has been buried deep down for a very long time. I wanted something I went for it. I am going to bring this person back. Or try anyways.
It is about living each day, enjoying the moments that most neglect. Seeing the real world, not the one we fabricate to satisfy our disturbed perception of the world. But the reality of what is actually happening in our world, our little universe. Or I guess my little universe. To listen to the world and what it is telling us. As we take the bus or the train or drive. Each moment there is allot that we miss. I know about this. After dad got sick and then mom. I started to see everything differently, It is amazing what we miss.
I am done for today.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
