Hello again
When I arrived this day, I spoke with the manager, concerning everything that has been going on in the last three months. She will be setting a meeting up with her Director. This is a good thing. Within the next week.
Anyways I am called many things by a few individuals, that write comments to me. Now let me tell you about an individual who warrants these negative comments.
I was warming up mom's fish and chips tonight and I happened to over here a man, telling his mother. He said out loud, maybe he didn't even hear himself speaking or know how loud he actually was, but what he said made me extremely angry.
He said to his mother. " I traveled all this way, and this is how you act." He was feeding her and she was shying away from him. It is obvious that he was speaking to her in a condescending manner before he became so vocal. What an asshole he was and I wold say without a doubt he is like this on a regular basis'. Why even bother to come, which I have never seen him before this evening. And as you are aware, I am their every single day. And he is one of those people who, well, are abusive in nature.
I wanted to just walk straight over there and have a few words with him. But I think it would of gotten out of control. Don't get me wrong, I am a pacifist by nature And will only take it further if it warranted it. Which is not very often at all. If at all.
Then latter on he was becoming very confrontational towards the staff, very demanding.
And I am the one who this individual has negative words about. I am the kindest, gentlest, patient person around. People tell me everything about there lives, After just meeting me. I am nothing but tender when it comes to my mother.
Now to mom.
Mom just loved her dinner tonight, ate all of it. I also had a nice dessert for her. A mango mouse cake. And her usual.
It took longer than usual for mom to eat this evening. But it is all good. To me, it doesn't matter how long it takes mom to eat. And afterwards, being Wednesday, I washed her hair. By this time mom was so relaxed and tired. As soon as she got into bed, it was only a quick spa treatment for her. Mom made a point of letting me know, she only wanted her face and arms done tonight. After this I just held her hand and fell off to sleep,but woke up, before I left to get something to drink. And then back to sleep she went. OK, after I sang her good night song to her. And tonight, mom sang with me. And told me she loved me. I heard it and understood it.
I left late, after 8 pm. Then caught the 8:30 bus. So I ended up home at 11. Which is fine. I have accomplished what I wanted to do when I got home.
Now to eat and sleep. I have to get up early again tomorrow. Today, I was up and did mom's wash, both washed and dried, showered and changed, before my alarm went off at 10 am.
I can really tell how much pain I am really in, by being so busy for the last few weeks. And it doesn't seem to be letting up for the next week or so.
I fell asleep last night during the first show I was watching. I usually can watch two shows and I fall asleep during a third one.
Well thank you for reading.
Please pray that I find a place.
GOD bless and good night.
Kristopher Schmuland
