Hello again
Mom seems to be OK with the passing of her roommate. Even though they never really spoke. Considering mom does not speak. Yet she does. One just has to know how to read her. They say we have our own language. I just know how to read her. So we can have some sort of conversations.
Anyways, mom was in good spirits and extremely hungry. I guess it was the dinner I made for her. She ate almost the entire meal. Only very little left.
Her Kiwi gold is done for the season. Have to wait until May for more.
I have thought about this. As other's have brought it up. There question is If your mom lives another 10 years are you going to continue at this rate, being here everyday.
And what do you think my response was. I will be here looking after mom for as long as in needed. If mom lives another 20 years, I will be here everyday. When I make a commitment I stick to it. No matter what. My life is her life. What ever it takes. I am not going anywhere. This is what I have chosen to do. Take care of my mother.
When we went back to the room, it seemed that I felt that her roommates spirit was still around.
Oh yes I said she was Scottish. Wrong. Irish.
Mom took longer to eat tonight. And it doesn't matter how long it takes her. That is the time I spend feeding her. So we got back to the room a half hour latter than normal.
Got her changed for bed, then the care aid came in and we got her into bed. Mom was full, and wanted me to quickly take care of the spa treatment. Which I did. This is so I could spend more time, holding her hand while she fell asleep. When I finished her spa treatment, mom just reached out for my hand.
It is such a warm and beautiful feeling having mom do this. Her just knowing I am their for her. That she can fall asleep feeling secure. And when I sang our good night song to her, this huge smile came upon her face. I know she was already asleep. Yet knowing.
I do hope mom live for a very long time to come.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher W.A. Schmuland
aka Looser
