Hello again
So today while giving mom her spa treatment, it dawned on me, that one of these days I will be giving mom her final spa treatment. I try my best everyday not to think like that. To not let that interfere with my day to day activities with mom. How I look after her and care for her. It just happened. A tear or many came to my eye's.
I know that one day, GOD bless it is not anytime soon, mom will move on to be with dad. Not now, though. I quickly turned the tears off and looked away from mom while clearing them from my eye's.
While feeding mom dinner, there was this guy who I have seen around. Works for the hospital. He had a sling on for the longest time. And tonight it was gone. I brought this up and said must feel good to be using both arms again. He then turned around and said to me, that he mentioned to his wife about this guy who is their everyday, taking care of his mother. And that he hopes he can do the same for his mom when it is time.
I have never spoken to this man before tonight. I just brought up the fact his sling was gone. And he proceeded to praise me.
Once again I am not doing this for any accolades, what so ever. I am doing the right thing. Mom needs to know she is loved and someone actually cares about her. To feel secure in her day to day life. This alone makes it all worth while. Just mom wanting to hold my hand ( Even though I really don't like to be touched and makes for a lonely existence) and the smile mom has on her face, when she falls asleep. Makes everything worth while.
I wasn't able to make anything for mom last night. So I got her a chicken pot pie and a seafood salad she likes. Mom was really hungry. She ate everything, plus some of the roast beef that was served to her. And the papaya, gold kiwi and avocado. Of course her 3 pack of Lindt chocolates.
I really do wonder sometimes where she put it all. I know mom eat way more than I do in a day. And she is thin.
I bought these pants for her a few weeks ago. I asked if they would try them on her first before they go for marking. To make sure I have the right size. When I bought them I asked the women if a medium was a size 16. She said yes. Today mom was wearing these pants and they were to small for her. To tight around the waist.
This is how they do things. I ask so I know if I have to return them. They don't bring anything up, and I assume that they fit. They are marked and now I can't bring them back and exchange them. OK I got them on sale, but still paid good money for them.
I will have to go back and get another, larger pair. Trust me I won't be letting the home have them to give to someone else. I will be bringing them to this home for displaced women. Let them have them. Or leave them for mom's daughters to take home. Or just let someone in the home, who is less fortunate then mom have them. Whatever I do I just know I have to get another pair. I really do like these pants. They looked good on mom. provided that whoever dressed mom has any idea how to dress someone.
They really do a bad job dressing mom. They haven't a clue what looks good together. I am picky how mom is to be dressed and what is bought for her. I have been buying mom's clothing since she went into a home. I have taken her with me when I could. Mom likes my taste in clothing, so she is OK with what I get her. And if she doesn't like it, she will let me know. Yes all of her clothing. OK my mother's daughters buy somethings. They have no taste either. Brown and I dislike brown immensely.
Mom is healthy otherwise. In good spirit. Enjoys me singing to her.
I have used my right arm to much today. I really have to get in and get the ex rays done. I have an appointment with a lawyer tomorrow, but the ex rays are far more important. I have a year to file a law suite. So lots of time.
But as I was saying, I used my right arm to much today and now I have a burning sensation through out my right side and my arm is numb. That is my bitch about me for the day.
Please, I really do need everyone to pray for me, that I find a place that I can afford right away. As my faith is still day to day. Even though I read the word. Or pray that I receive some financial help or GOD guides me to the right people, place or thing.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Shcmuland
