Hello again
How are you, I am fine thank you. Except for the extreme continuous pain that I am in. Not being able to use my right arm as I did a month ago, not being able to carry what I use to. As in tonight, while on my way home I needed to stop at a store and get mom her soft drinks she likes. They are on sale, so I usually get two 6 packs. That is all I can carry. Not tonight. After getting them and getting off the bus, by my home, I had to stop every 50 feet and set the bag down and take a break. Took me twice as long to get home as it did. And now I am feeling the pain.
Anyways, enough about me. Maybe not.
This one women, tonight, was speaking with me and telling me that she lives closer than I do and drives, but she complains about it. She doesn't understand how I take the bus 3 hours each way, everyday.
Well let me tell you. I have this built in loyal thing. When I say I will be their for someone, I am their for them. No matter what, I will go through whatever it takes to get there and be there. Whether I hurt or not, I will continue to go. Without exception. And, again, I made a promise to my father, on his death bed, that I would take care of mom and look after her. So that is that.
Tonight mom was overly impatient. Even though I try to explain to her that I am slower than normal, because of the accident and will be for a while. She wanted her drinks right away, her dinner right away, and dessert. And when I was doing the dishes, she was trying to get out of her chair, she just wanted to be in the bed, stretched out.
I had to change the sheets, put the clean duvet cover on, and she continued to try to get out of her chair. I had to just keep explaining to her that it is going to take time. I wanted her to get into bed with clean sheets, pillow cases and the duvet. So you have to wait I said to her. Well not good enough for her. She was getting frustrated and was talking away, very quickly, so I could not understand her.
The care aid came in wanting to transfer to bed and change her pad. So I had mom and the care aid rushing me. I just explained to the care aid that I needed to change everything.
Finally I finished and was able to just sit down next to mom, she grabbed my hand right away and closed her eye's. It is a natural thing for mom to do when she grabs my hand. Close her eye's. It is a nice feeling, that she trusts me so much.
She got to bed, I did her spa treatment and she reached for my hand before I even finished. When done I gave her something to eat, yogurt and some drinks. I laid her bed back to a relaxed position and held her hand while she fell asleep.
I waited until her hand was completely relaxed, which meant mom was asleep, sang our good night song to her, packed everything up and left.
I got home not to long ago and put one of her sweaters in to soak, as I spilled tea on her cotton sweater and it is a bitch to get out. I have soaked it three times already and will need to soak it, probable three more times. I have even put this stain remover on it.
OK I need to go and make something to eat. Watch something and go to sleep. Yea if I will ever get a good, solid nights sleep. Haven't since the accident. I am even taking something to help me sleep. Works for about 2 hours and then it is every two hours I am waking up. Big dark circles under my eye's
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland.
