Hello again
Well I just want to say that everything I write is my opinion, feelings and thoughts. It is real and raw
I do what I do for my mother for no financial rewards what so ever. What I get is pure joy and love. When mom hears my voice and her hand goes out, immediately. And that amazing smile. Or when she just touches the side of my face and smiles. This makes me cry. It is the best feeling in the world. Or when she tells me she loves me, while I hold her hand, when she is falling asleep. Or just that she wants to hold my hand each and every moment that I am their with her. The trust she has, to let me change her for bed. To be able to speak with her,everyday. And to understand her. They say we have our own language. This maybe true.
The fact that I am the only one who has feed her dinner in the last 5 years.
This is a blessed opportunity that I have!
Yes I travel 3 hours each, that is OK. It is well worth every Km I travel. It would be nice to be living in White Rock.
I never complain about any of this. It is what is needed to be done. And I love every bit of it.
OK I do go without. But I need to make sure mom has home cooked meals at least once a day. To make sure she gets fresh fruit and drinks everyday.
I will be making mom a nice Christmas dinner.
Other than being with mom these 4 hours each day. I will be coming back to Coquitlam to an empty house. Alone and knowing I won't be having a Christmas dinner or even a lump of coal.
Some say I whine to much. But it is only here that I do this. Otherwise no one knows that I go without, and don't eat.
I tell no one.
I am blessed to have the time with my mom
So since I will have nothing to do Christmas eve and day. I might write
OK it is after midnight, so it is Christmas eve. but not until I wake up.
GOD bless and good night
Merry Christmas
Kris Schmuland
