Hello again
So I walk in and mom is dressed like she is poor. She had allot of nice clothing until, last week. Then we all know what happened.
No more. Monday I go to the police. Tomorrow I write a letter for ..................................... we will not include this right now...
Mom was hungry and she wasn't. She wanted to eat and yet she didn't. It was a little hard tonight. She didn't know herself.
I brought her some cheese pasta and stuffed chicken breast. Plus a slice of chocolate cheese cake. She ate some of each of it. But not everything. A bit of this and a bit of that.
She didn't even eat the entire papaya. Still sick.
She just wanted to go to bed. Very tired. I really hope she gets better soon. She is not even drinking as much as she usually does.
I didn't tell her about Mrs Elliott, yet. I want her to get better first. I will have to tell her. Maybe tomorrow. We will see how she feels.
I will, however make sure mom gets allot of fruit. I have a few different types of cheese as well.
I need to live out their. I need to do as much as I can for mom. She is alone. I travel 6 hours a day. Which I could be using this time to do more for mom.
I made a decision. That I will dedicate my life to GOD in order to help mom. As it is I don't date. Not
fair to whomever I date.
Don't get me wrong, for the strangest reason, I have been getting asked out allot. At least once a month, someone asked me out. Very weird. It is OK makes me feel good
But my main focus is to look after mom. And do everything I can do to make her life as exciting as possible. To take her out.
I feel really guilty about not getting mom to see her friend before Christmas. I brought this up to the PGT and nothing was done.
He even said to me that no one can predict death. But I know when I need to do things. And their importance in the big picture of life. When I feel the need to do something. It is always the right thing to get done. It has an importance.
I have had a gift since I was a child.
But mom is lonely. I can see this. Even though I am there everyday, for 3 or 4 hours each day. And I love every minute of it. I want to do more.
In order for me to do this. I need to be living in White Rock/South Surrey I don't do anything for myself. Well, just the bare minimum. So I can live. I do everything else I can do for mom.
I pray and pray for mom's health and for me to get the help ( financially) to move to White Rock/South Surrey
I will continue to pray and expect goodness to happen.
I am tired and need or want to just watch something. I really don't even know what I even want to watch.
So good night to everyone
GOD bless
Kris Schmuland
