Hello again.
First I want to state for the record
"MY MOTHER IS NOT MENTALLY ILL. THEY ARE FORCING HER TO STAY IN A PLACE THAT SHE DOES NOT BELONG. THEY HAVE CAUSED ALL OF HER PROBLEMS. THEY HAVE CRIPPLED HER, WITHOUT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT. THEY REFUSE TO ALLOW ME TO GET MOM WALKING. AND THEY WILL NOT DO IT THEMSELVES AS THEY SAID THEY WOULD DO. THEY HAVE GIVEN HER DRUGS THAT THE FDA STATES NOT TO GIVE TO SENIORS WITH ALZHEIMER'S OR DEMENTIA. AS IT CAN KILL THEM. THEY REFUSE TO LISTEN TO ANYONE. THEY TELL ME AS LONG AS YOUR MOTHER IS UNDER OUR CARE, YOU DO WHAT WE SAY! THIS IS A DOCTOR TELLING ME THIS. SHE IS BEING LOOKED AFTER BY STAFF THAT IS NOT QUALIFIED TO LOOK AFTER SICK PEOPLE. THEY ARE NOT NURSES. THEY ARE PSY NURSES. THEY COULD NOT WORK IN A HOSPITAL IF THEY TRIED. THEY ARE NOT QUALIFIED TO DO SO. THE DOCTORS ARE ONLY GUESSES AT WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER. MOM HAS NEVER BEEN TESTED FOR ANYTHING. THE DIRECTOR MAKES THREATS THAT THEY WILL STOP ME TO SEE MY MOTHER. BASED ON DEFAMATORY STATEMENTS MADE BY STAFF MEMBERS"
You know, I go to see mom everyday, as I don't know when mom will not know who I am. This is why it is important for my to be their everyday.
So maybe mom will remember me everyday. I know mom does not know my sisters anymore. She does not recognize them.
Especially my younger sister. This is something that does bother me. That they are so selfish, that they cannot spend time with mom.
I try to do everything I can for her. I want her to not die in a hospital or a seniors home. I want mom to live with me. I want to take mom all over the place, to see so many things, that mom has not been able to see, because of being locked up against her will and mine.
Mom deserves, better for the rest of her life, however long or short it may be.
Yes I want to get Adsaac off the ground. But I would rather just take care of my mother.
Actually, all I want to do is look after mom. Everything else can come latter. I want to spend as much time as possible with my mother as I can. Before!
I have no idea what time she has left. I just need to be their for her. All the time. I don't care about anything else. Yes even myself. I could care less if I eat or sleep. Or whatever. I only care about what happens to mom.
Is this to much to ask for. To look after the one, who looked after you. Be their for my loved one.
Not like the rest of my family. Who just does not give a shit about anything but themselves. This is apparent by their actions. Oh yea lack of actions.
I am a Christian and I am honored to look after the widows. And to take care of your parents. Not to leave them stuck in their room, wheels locked, facing the bathroom. As I found her yesterday. And the day before. Wheels locked facing the wall.
Would you liked to be forced to be placed facing the wall, or the bathroom. Without be able to do anything about it.
I will and do everything I can. Yes I would love to do more. I am only here to look after her. Their is no other reason for my existence.
I have been a useless lump, all my life, until I was needed by both of my parents. Yes I have an education. And a good one. But I am only put on this earth to do one thing and one thing only. To look after my mother.
To make her happy. I am the happiest I have ever been, taking care of mom.
Mom is my life. If I do nothing else in my life. I am happy. And my life will be complete and then I am done. I need no more. Then I can go.
I just need to make sure my mothers life is the best that it can be. And if it takes all of my time and my life to do this. Then so be it. That is what I will do then. Period.
I have been crying allot lately. As mom does not want to be in Oceanside anymore. And I don't want her their anymore either. It has been two months now, since I was told mom is moving.
Mom needs to get away from this staff, and I need to be far away from them as well. I know to much and I don't want to deal with this bull shit any longer.
Mom is having major dental work done, as the psychotropic medication she has been given, ruined her teeth. And I cant get the floss in her mouth. So the dentist said that what mom needs is a good cleaning system.
Now the PGT refuses to release funds for this. Even though it is of a serious nature. I even wrote Procter and Gamble and got a coupon for the cleaning system. Then the PGT tells me, no funds will be released for this purpose.
The PGT, Stephen, even went so far as to tell me to get a job. How dare he, He knows I leave my home between 1 and 2 pm to get to the hospital for mom's dinner. He knows full well I have a disability, and have to use a cane to walk or even stand up. He knows full well that I have to bring everything for mom their and back. As if I leave it their, everything will go missing. He even knows what promisses he made to me, last fall. And never fullfilled any of them.
And mom needs new shoes, not one pair, but two. I have found several pairs. But the PGT refuses to release funds for the shoes as well. And then the shoes are gone. There is only a few places in the Lower Mainland that carries wide size shoes for women. And I have traveled to them. Finding shoes, only to be told, no funds will be released for this purpose.
The PGT is getting carried away. They make me have to access funds through the comfort fund at the hopital. 60 klm's away. And it takes me 3 hours to get their.
This is abuse. I had to use my bus fair to buy mom things she needs. And today is the first and I don't know how I am going to get their and back., now. This is what I deal with.
I am told that I spent the money on other things, knowing full well what I spent the funds on. And yet refusing to help me out.
I would be living in White Rock now, if it where not for the actions of the PGT. I would have a furnished 2 bedroom place. Being able to bring mom over for dinners and to stay for a night. I would have a car, if they kept their word.
I would be able to take mom anywhere and everywhere. If the PGT kept their word.
I need help. I am not coping well. I am very stressed out right now.
I put on a happy face for mom. I leave all the crap at the door. And I feel like sometimes I cant do enough. And you know what I am not doing enough.
I just cant handle the abuse we get from the PGT and the fact. I have absolutely no one to speak to about this or anything.
I have to go now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
